Monday, January 25, 2010

发泄完毕!

只是纯粹想blogging...因为无聊 还是无聊

时间, 嘀嗒嘀嗒的, 每天就这样看着时间流逝 等着上班 下班 休息,睡眠? 渐渐的少了 黑眼圈都明显的露出来了 做工真的那么难吗? 现在知道钱难赚了吧! 从第一天后我回家的时间再也看不到白天 只有黑暗 跟家人相处的时间也不过只有那短短的时间而已-- 半小时? 还是就连说话的时间也不到半句? 下午做工 晚上11点才回家 到家,冲凉 刷个牙 就睡觉了 因为什么?

一个字

累!

难道累也是个错? 现在是该付出还是牺牲? 还是因为每次的累 我都该被责骂后才甘愿啊?! 睡眠, 我已好久没有了! 顶多每天就算是有那8小时!还是觉得不够 8小时后 继续上班 驾车打瞌睡, 做工还有点头痛! 我撑!
前天回到家 我快跨了! 我已经没力啦 妈的 隔天还要上班! 我讨厌这种生活! 可是我能怎样!? 想说 可以有个人给我诉苦 结果呢!? 昨天晚上 睡得迷迷糊糊 一通电话来 结果呢? 就因为我说累!被你当成是个借口, 我还能说什么。。因为我的累 我没付出什么 看似我没用 就连现在觉得睡觉也是个错! 说我没珍惜 就当我对爱情两字不解~ 从来不解! 我不了解什么是爱!我不懂得要怎么建立一个所谓好的感情!! 爱情的含义是什么? 意义何在? 牺牲吗? 该付出多少?

每天对着一堆陌生人 有好听的 也有不好听的 我都不能吭声 就一直憋在心里什么也不能说 不能做! 难道要我每天抱着枕头埋头哭泣?! 哭了又能怎样!?!? 哭了能解决问题吗? 哭了他人会同情我吗?! 这就是我要面对的社交圈子吗?! 每天都要看别人脸色来工作, 就短短的3个星期我也不能熬 他人会说:好啦!你休息吧!不会嘛! 谁会理啊! 反而还会被瞧不起!
昨天 原本想说去chinese kitchen 拿 一包crabstick 就去问那里的师傅~ 反而被酸说:你在叫我啊?你学校老师没教你看人要叫人的吗? 没有吗? 酱没礼貌的啊~~ 你家人没教你的啊?!
妈的!我已经叫了两次是你没听到还要来教训我啊!! 他妈的! 跟你拿个东西还要看你脸色!
二话不说 拿了crabstick 硬着头皮走出厨房! 我已经咬牙忍了~ 我承认我不够坚强 眼泪容易流 但 还是收拾好心情继续工作!

家人, 想想我已经有段时间没跟他们坐在一起吃晚餐了。。昨天刚巧早下班才有那机会! 现在每天回到家至少有跟妈咪讲讲工作发生的事之类的~







难道选择这条路就是种牺牲吗?

Friday, January 22, 2010

解不开的心谜

一个看似简单普通的10角硬币 却 改变了我的所有
它牵引了我到你的音乐世界里
吉他旋律的奇妙 让我更想深入了解你对音乐的热情
从开始直到现在 我有怀疑过这转大的改变
匆忙的开始 透不过气的争执
现在 缓慢的步伐 渐渐的 拉近我们的距离
很奇妙 感情就是那样 说不出来 下一个情节

昨晚 让我回想当初的开始 回想当初的争执
我承认看似马虎的开始 我接受不了 试想放开
重视朋友的眼光
重视他人的批评,意见
懊恼是否该放开
怀疑你的认真
怀疑你的真心
怀疑你的选择
因为朋友而争执
也因为对你的怀疑而争执
自己不敢相信眼前的一切是否真实
再度的试想放开

一次一次的试想 一次一次的道理
我被击倒了
永远赢不了道理两字
衡量 教会我怎么重视朋友
渐渐的 我接受了
可是 再怎样接受
我会迟疑自己眼前所看到,发生的一切
到底是否真实!
那样的开始 让我懊恼好久
不敢要求什么
因为连我自己也不知道自己要什么 而你又想的是什么
害怕哪天 我真的当成了笨蛋!

I see ONLY moon

No time for blogging lately, working working working! Yea...work 6 days in a week plus everyday work till 10pm night go back =( Is that how training is?? I thought I just have to work for 8 hours and more counted as overtime but sometimes isnt that way! I have to work split shift as well which started at 11.30-2.30pm then continue at 6-10pm! To me, Im gonna go crazy weh! Time working in a restaurant isnt a good choice...aiks! I dislike split shift! I dislike working in kitchen! But I have no choice to choose kitchen as that was what college asked for it! Saddy....
Haihs...my eye bag is getting worst which could show people I looked like a panda...GOSH! Not enough sleep...saddy! Working is so tiring now I know how hard to earn money! Gila sial! My hard earn money...How should I spend it wisely? haha...XD

Oh yea...CNY is coming soon! Again another saddy...I have no time for CNY shopping! Arghhhh!!!!! My first time cant enjoy the shopping for this celebration! No new clothes for me...
Mummy said: You can save money for this year by not spending any for new stuffs! *sob*
I want shopping! Shop crazily for new stuffs!!

One more thing, to say if I get to learn anything for this training my answer would be 50-50! haihs! I really have no idea what am I suppose to get from there...the operations? the service? the ways? What?? The week in Chinese banquet I was like a part-timer more than a trainee...I can say that I've learnt nothing! haihs....That's the fact of life! Sometimes really dont give a damn on it! I have no longer work in the morning shift 9-5pm....that's only for the first day and next day onwards 11-7pm, 3-11pm, 11-11pm!

Crazy life!

Everyday get to see moon after work...The sunset?? No chance! The only moment when I get to go back early at 5pm I'll really shout out loud, high to the max with no ending! =D

Saturday, January 16, 2010

Happy Birthday to ME!

Yes!
I'm OFFICIALLY 19th!

So?? haihs....yea~ so what! 19 still the same like a small kid =) Mummy daughter...
Birthday still have to work overtime....sien lo! Actual time 11-7 just because of the crazy function held at the hotel with 670pax! We have to stay back as helpers! *swt*
If not I might get to celebrate my birthday with friends(?) who knows =(

And also, just because my friend spoke out so fast and "ter"slip to say out today is my birthday to a Malay guy..he quite nasty la but friendly~ Because of that, he started to tell everyone who he knows! SHYT LA!! After the word "birthday" he went towards the tap water and splashed some water on me! Another swt! So that's their so called style of celebrating a person's birthday...LOL!!
The job for today isnt that much or busy for us the trainees but not for the staffs...they like busy in hell!

Function started at 7pm ends around 9pm+! After that clear up boleh balik! Before I could step out from the kitchen, I went to see the chef leader for the OT sign out...When I wanted to go back already, he brought up a topic started to talk grandpa story...haihs! I have to listen of course...just nod nod head say "ya ya" speak out opinions blah blah!! Just then, a group of people outside was standing outside seemed to wait for something! In the meantime, one of the guy stretched his hand to the switch, the chef and I were blur blur and wondering what they trying to do!

To my surprise, they switched off the light and a sound of birthday song from them, brought in the birthday cake which they already requested earlier from the pastry = =||| I didnt know that....That's a real surprise to me! haha...Yea~ the unforgettable birthday which 1st celebrate and blew candle in hotel kitchen! XD XD

Two pieces of cakes which looked nice with 2 strawberries and chocolate fan as garnishing, not to forget the word "Happy Birthday" too! =) Nice cake, tasted yummy which I dont even know that's cheese cake until my friend told me! GOSH!! I disliked cheese but the cakes were really great...tasted kinda like Secret Recipe(?) XD The cheese doesnt taste really bad and also I dont even get to taste any cheese too...maybe the cheese doesnt have the strong smell....That's great! haha...XD
After finished everything, time to go back~~


Early in the morning, received 10 messages! FB quite a numbers too...until Im back home FB wishes are like TONS! ROFL! Just imagine if the wishes turn into presents! That would be a BIG WOW!! XD
Thx dear for the wish too =) Sad you didnt celebrate on the actual day of it but happy too had done in advance...love you ♥ ♥ ♥

Non stop eating on birthday!


杨枝甘露
Chilled Mango Sago Sweet Soup
This dessert really costly and I got it for FREE!


Chilled Longan with Almond Beancurd


Cheese Cake
The very first time I'd finished a piece of it!
^^

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

The Surprise

The Surprise? Is that surprise? *sort of* =D

Yesterday Im off *high to the max* waited for so long...crazy working 7 days in a week! But also great working in Carousel the buffet restaurant ^^ Who wont get happy if there's off! haha...

So so so....the plan for yesterday! errrhmmm....noon after sent my bro to school, I went to pick up dear at his so called house, again an excuse of the laziness of me, I asked him to drive!! muahahaaaa!!!! Pergi makan lunch near his house and very the "great" coincident we met up the lecturers at the restaurant! *swt* Whatever lalalaa~~~


After lunch, went Pyramid to watch the awaiting movie for real long time --AVATAR! And, finally! We get to watch! Wooo~~ that's a good thing to watch movie on weekdays! No crowds! 2.30pm show until 5pm+ pergi jalan nowhere~ simply walk in and out those gift shops since he said wanna buy stuffs for friend whom birthday is just round corner...and asked opinions from me which furry bears look nice or if I like....isnt that sounds fishy!? Crazy searching for pooh bear, asking me whether if I like, and why have to wait to buy that furry stuff since is already confirmed!? Everything was so fishy and I might know what's going on too but just keep silent...going round and round, floor to floor....get nothing!

The next thing, dinner! He asked me to close eyes and leaded me to the restaurant! At that floor...I was wondering which restaurant would be!? The moment my eyes were close, I was leaded blindly! The direction was towards to these restaurant,ok...my "mind map" was on! Sakae Sushi, couldnt be! Pappa Rich, impossible gua~ but might be! Okay...right opposite of Pappa Rich, beside Sakae Sushi! Yea, Fullhouse! But izzit impossible?!
Who knows! I was really stood right in front of the Fullhouse restaurant and he said "Yes! This is the place for dinner!" I was surprised and get shocked! OMG!!!
I wanted to go there whenever I get a chance and he did bring me there! *weeee* I was so damn happy weh! After that he got another excuse to toilet, that time I might know he went to buy the furry doggy when I said that was the last choice! But when he was backed, empty in hand! Quite a disappointed...then I saw he was talking with someone outside but not sure who was that fella la~ forget about it! Just in time when he was backed to be seated a girl approached with a bag of box! BIG BOX! For sure I know it was that furry doggy and YES IT IS! I have no idea, mind blank and I did crazy smiling for the whole dinner session! hahaha...





Surprise? erm....sort of! The restaurant might be a surprise but the furry doggy....hehe!!

I was happy for the day he dressed up nicely without a cap on ^^ Ok, no doubt, he looked handsome with the nice hair looked and long jeans =D
Oh ya...1st time a real big spend for him!

Dear....thank for the furry doggy and the dinner ^^ Love you much much~~ muacks!!

Wednesday, January 06, 2010

Working+Driving = Tiring²

Agree??

Started my training since yesterday....3 months training *actually only 2 months+* 1st 5 weeks in kitchen when is starting right now and the next 5 weeks will be allocated at F&B Chinese restaurant, sounds great huh?!
Just only for the 1st 2 days Im gonna scream out loud to release tired-ness!! GOSHHHH!!!!







Im exhausted already and going to bed NOW!!
I MISS MY BED!!!

Sunday, January 03, 2010

Bye 2009, Hi 2010

Since the year 2009 ended, I've never started a post with 2010~
Lazy, the common excuse uses by people including ME! Yea...lazy to post! =P
So...I guess nothing to say more like what the titled has showed and said everything~ By the way, the gathering on 31st Dec 2009 at Ampang Hill will post when Im free ^^


Tomorrow is the day I've awaited for long and getting even nervous & lazy too to go for the training at Palace of Golden Horses~ haihs! Is that gonna be happy,excited or sad?? My holiday just ended with a great vacation with friends and family~ *so called GREAT* Wish myself luck and work smart for the 3 months~






GAMBATEH JESSIE!!!!! =D
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