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2011-10-15T16:17:00.002+08:00

突然，累得辛苦

哭过的累。

对家人的期待，家的快乐，一瞬间消失了。

绝望。失落。真的累。

好想每天的离开。躲避。

寻找自己的私生活，刺激感。

现在明白一根烟是为了解开烦恼。

累了

2011-10-14T22:45:00.003+08:00

Imma so not in mood. Day to bored.

Assignments are still pending in com. Lazy. Just feel like throwing everything into the sea. Let the sea wave washed away.

累了。辛苦了。

一场不一样的恋爱，无奈的累。

需要安慰。

偶尔回想，我们共创了多少的回忆？很无助。

家人的束缚，给了个挑战。

但又有谁知道这场游戏会停止呢？

等待？期待？

又有谁会明白那心情？

累了。哭了。要坚持。

真的想过离开一个属于我的家。一个人生活会是怎样？

未遇到的挫折，怎么懂得坚持呢？

加油吧！只能靠自己了！

Up-to-date October

2011-10-14T21:49:00.004+08:00

7th October

His special day, his birthday.

Happy birthday, darling.

You're not alone to celebrate.

The homemade cupcakes *cacated*

The handmade card. Lovely.

The after so long swimming session! Finally, last Wednesday! woohoo. Super awesome.

Just gulped off a McD chicken burger after swimming. Satisfied!

Yesterday..the beauty of sky really caught my eyes. Eventually took a picture.

Assignment, as usual, still pending. Sigh. Im so lazy and sick of THEM! *bing bang!*

Mind rest. Peace.

8月，再见！

2011-08-31T22:33:00.002+08:00

8月将接近尾声了。

马来西亚独立54周年。气氛渐渐消失-花火，游行，倒数。我也忘了日历上的8月31日。

8月，过得不怎么样。闷。跟男友闹下不合；分分合合，合合分分。表面上的情趣，但会累的说。意图想说 “算了，放弃吧！” 但还是抵抗不了自己对他的心。8月16日收到了电话的黑色华丽新衣。感谢宝贝！

那天被问到 “你们应该还记得你们的第一次吧？第一次的约会？第一场戏？。。。” 只有，沉默。

画面模糊，为什么？不在乎？男友说 “每个人有不同的恋爱方式” 有这么一回事吗？想了，真的很无奈。想不通。

某星期的星期四，到jogoya开餐！那也是我的最后一次了！食物没什么特别，贵！却引来人潮。开心的，刚巧遇到了小学最要好的朋友。天哪！真是个最妙的一天！赞！

闷了。累了。懒了。不写了。Bye!

Zapalang.

2011-08-15T19:42:00.002+08:00

What's up-to-date?? I have no idea what to update about.

Just got my class started...having a nice free day on every Monday and Wednesday. Degree can be fun though. Too bad, most of the classes really bored because of the lecturers. And, now is the fasting month. Everyday gonna caught in jam if just a minute late to get out from uni in the evening.

Arrgghh...!!!! Feeling lifeless. Like what boyfriend said. But, Im lazy to drive out when I have free time. Friends? They ain't free for me to call out. Hey ya! Wonder...what changes will be when turn to be 21? Same life? Same shytty things to go around? What's the future ahead? So blank.

I just got a new phone recenty. Samsung Galaxy S2. It began with my boyfriend asking to look thru this smartphone. Got excited. Wanted to get it everywhere in any Maxis Centre but always get a shyt answer! But, lcukily the 2nd last day of promo I got it! =D Happily using it. I have no idea why is this phone giving some kind of problem already. Gosh! Auto shut down. Half screen gone in password screen. *swt* Imma looking for a new "shirt" for my baby phone. Expensive yo! Around 60 bucks for a silicone casing. Im so-not-willing to get it. Haihs. Big sigh. Phone has to be temporary in nude.

Tomorrow, 16th!

♥ ♥ Love, always.

空虚。

2011-07-20T13:14:00.002+08:00

在家呆久了，胡思乱想也就多了

突然觉得，身边一切都不属于我。渐渐的，离开。

空虚。缺少了好多的事物。

与朋友的距离，好远。为什么就不可以像其他人一样，要出去跟朋友喝个茶，聊个天都那么难吗？

朋友再怎么失去，不见，离开也不想失去我的男友。

20岁，还是个18岁小瓜，被困在小屋里。好宅。

要整理房子，懒！要睡个饱饱的，胖！生活如此的无趣。

看来还是时候整理一下下书橱吧！下学期要来了，笔记也就跟着增加。

所定自己下个目标，新学期开始，要运动！

加油吧！！

Let's kick!

2011-07-14T15:24:00.005+08:00

Yesterday was really a great day to me. I'd been accompanying him from day till night. A day to remember.

6.45pm, we both headed to Bukit Jalil for the Arsenal match. Excited. Yes! My ever first time. Drove all the way there, avoided jam, drove gangster bit. haha. Reach there was about 7.30pm. But, the jam outside the stadium was just not as jam as I thought. The parking was a real headache. We parked all the way back to the housing area and walked to stadium nearly took half an hour! A nice exercise for the night!

In the stadium, my attention was on the audiences. Their cheers made me even having much more fun! Of course, my boy too. First time watching a live game with my boy. Happy!

The crowds. Making me excited.

The players, Malaysia and Arsenal! =D

Finally, spotted Eric, my NS friend.

Yea, he was excited. Feel so great to see him smile =D

Match ended at 11pm. Way back home, had supper at mamak with boyfriend and he sleptover at my house. Awwww....!!! I feel so great. We are so near. Another first time. A real day to remember...13072011. ♥♥♥

Freely Monday

2011-07-13T00:29:00.004+08:00

A great Monday to kick out my day. I love it.

Went Mid Valley to accompany my boy for lunch, bought some stuffs from skincare centre. I did really something stupid and silly. I was so happy to buy the things which cost rm1035. I gave my debit card, swipe. "Declined", credit card machine said. The receptionist tried for so many times already but it still declined when she swipe for rm500. Tried rm200, success! Another time, success. 3rd time, "Declined"!! What the hell!!! Walked over Maybank for help...!! Manatau......the salary haven't bank in yet! -.- Silly me called up mum to transfer.

Everything settle. Met up with my boy for lunch at Garden restaurant. A cozy, romantic, mighty white environment really brings down its food's quality! Disappointed.

Cheap fish can get in pasar and this cost me 18.90!

The super creamy spaghetti...yuckieee!!!

The mighty white environment wins a point.

Chilling out at Starbucks with The Fraps.

His choco chip. Her green tea.

Blueberry cheesecake. The awesome-ness!!

My lovely boy. Get his BB off from him next time!

C'est tout. Au revoir.

Hiking 爬山记

2011-07-10T00:13:00.003+08:00

Yea. As what title said. I went for hiking this early morning. Fresh air, morning walkers, greenery, rocky path, steep steps...After you've made it to the top, you'll be saying "Good Morning World!"

Something happen. I was on my way up till the top. Bringing up myself, tired so hard, steps by steps to reach the top. I wasn't expect that will happen again but it did. I almost felt faint again like the first attempt at Broga. Dizzy, ear stuck, eyesight blur - The sign of fainting. Scared my shyt out of my asshole!

Guess I have to really keep myself real FIT!!! =D

Here comes The July

2011-07-06T00:30:00.003+08:00

Time to blog.

I didn't realize is already July and my blog comes to a 3rd anniversary! =D Is been 3 years blogging. *yoohoo* What's next in life? Waiting for the degree class to start on 25th July. *yoohoo* again.

Im back to the eat, sleep, shyt life. Just being lazy to work, wanna have a lazy life for sometime before I got back to university. Working ain't easy at all even you're real too free. That's going bored till tired! What so simple working then? I can say none. The experience of working, you get your own hard earn money is the time you feel kinda motivated, but it just loses out sometimes. Adapting with the people you work with kinda difficult. Have to know their "culture", their attitude, every single moves have to eye on. Especially you are in a higher position than others. I dont really get use to it being leadership. Maybe just being kiddo. haha. But after this 2months plus working, feel great that I didnt waste my time and even get my own money! =D *applause* Is great to see when your banking account has some amount! What's next then? Time for shopping!!! =D

What should I spend on for my hard earn money?? An Iphone? A camera? -.-

After the few treatments at Bella skincare, my underarms condition getting better. Happy. My teeth are working great with each other. They move pretty fast. I think it should take another half a year to get it done! *huuray*

So far, everything goes so well. I got my own body scrub and own hair treatment. Feeling so good! Yeappie! Owh yeah...talking about body scrub, I'd been nagging by boyfriend so sadly. Speechless then. *gua gua gua* I think is the end of story. There're lots more to crap about (in future).

C'est tout.

Shopping Spree

2011-06-21T13:38:00.002+08:00

Woots! I've spent rm250 for my own shopping with my own hard earn money! Happy!!!

1 shirt from MNG

1 wedges heel from Vincci

1 purse from Charles and Keith

1 eyeliner from Sasa

1 moisturizer from Neutrogena

I love the shirt from MNG! A pants from Esprit didnt get to buy cz no size! Hate! Quality so damn good! Smooth! >.< But still happy with everything I got! Time to change!

垃圾思想，离开吧！

2011-06-16T01:52:00.002+08:00

忍受等于折磨。你的身影总在身边浮现。

离开了十个月，但我的记忆都存有你的画面！妈的！

你的影响真的有那么的大吗！！？哪怕只是一个动作，都让我觉得熟悉。

近来，我碰上的某个男生，性格几乎还蛮像的。让我觉得很想离开那地方！让我觉得他偶尔很讨人厌。一举一动，一字一句，哪怕只是你穿过的衣服款式，样样都让我觉得你真的很讨人厌！

男友，再怎么说对他真的不公平。我隐藏的，不想让他知道。因为怕失去，怕不再被信任，怕再也没有那些快乐的日子。每天都因这些垃圾思想，让我变得矛盾！好像找个人诉说，诉苦。谁呢？

这样下去，我也只能真的失去。

他妈的你！够了！离开吧！！！！！！

Bad Mood Monday

2011-06-13T14:17:00.003+08:00

Mall is so empty. School holiday has came to its end. Business backs to normal. Quiet, bored.

Time, please fly faster. Bring me to the end of this work. I've been waiting and waiting, suffer.

Im feeling so cold here. What's wrong? Fever? No. But I so hope that I could just sick. SICK OF LOOKING EVERYONE WORKING HERE. DAMN! Especially the senior! I dont give a big shyt on her!

Complaints cant change anything. Is only a way for me to release all anger. I just need a break.

Im so indecisive. My boyfie was so frustrated with me. Cant tahan me always complaint complaint...cant make up mind = cant get things done. Haihs. Is just way too much for me to think. Yes is true, in future I gonna pay my mum back the money I've spend from her. But again, is that wise to get a camera using my own money now?? I know it would feel so great after getting it. How how??

Movie Marathon

2011-06-13T01:40:00.002+08:00

First time go on a movie marathon with my lovely man.

Kung Fu Panda 2 was awesome. The boink boink Panda Po really got me into the movie. =)

X-men First Class...I can claim that a first timer came to watch this kinda "Star Wars" style movie was like watching cartoons. haha!!

Conclusion...is great for overall. Next movie marathon AGAIN!!!

Bye May, Hi June

2011-06-01T14:36:00.005+08:00

May has gone, June comes in.

I've been working for a month. Turns out pretty fast, isn't it? Im gonna shout for QUIT!! C'mon! Is time for a serious holiday. I need a holiday! A real relaxing holiday!

Working ain't easy at all. Have to cope with people you work with. Of course, they are your colleagues. But, what if your colleagues are SUCKS!? Im not to say anything but a serious matter I really fedup and sick of it. C'mon la! Please see what's going on now. I'm just telling the truth and facts. You people not happy talk with the boss and not showing a face when work! Anyways, I'm just fine with that. Nothing to fedup. Hmm...do my own stuffs. Happy with myself. =D

Another treatment 'BANG' into my life. The braces took up a huge amount cost 6k. Every month rm200. Im earning. Was talking back about the previous post, my underarms skin condition are real bad. Yes! I'm undergoing the treatment at Bella. Dang! Hit another 6k!

Mummy said "I'm lending you the money now, you have to pay me back in future!" Gaga!! Of course. 12k dude! No jokes! -.- Im counting how much I actually need to earn to pay back this? Lifetime. Is time for a daughter to do something for mum.

Mummy said "Im easy for you. You just need to give me shelter and foods!" I smile.

Skin brightening, skin gel. In a year, I'm gonna have a nice underarms. *pray pray*

What's for June?? Earning money to get a nice cam! My aim! But, braces and treatments!? *scratch head*

Stay tune! =)

C'est tout.

What's Your Flavor?

2011-06-01T14:01:00.004+08:00

It's the end of May! Baskin Robbin time! =D

What's your flavor?

The quart and The pint. Woots!!

My home 2 big ice cream eaters(bro and I) gulp all the pints in few minutes!

No left! *evil laugh*

Im so happy with every 31st!!

Money "Desperator"

2011-05-27T23:58:00.002+08:00

Money, what is it to me now? Important!

Everything talks about money. I'm working for money. Pay by money. Gamble with money. Travel with money. Money brings happy life? Money make your beauty?

Why besides money is still money?

My braces, spend 6k.

My course, spend 50k+

What's next? My beauty! Im having a serious problem of underarms. Why God has to make me suffer from money??! Went over a skin care centre, Bella. The consultant was explaining to me every single details and of course, PRICE of treatment is much more important and interesting to hear about. Another 4k+

Where could money just fall from no where in front of me. It helps me to solve every single problem! That's life? I dont think so. Why am I suffer from all this!? A serious matter of underarms make my life even not interesting. Wanna be sexy but cant, wanna be hot but difficult. =(

Camera, 2k

Smartphone, 2k

What's less than thousands!? Hundreds! -.-

How much can I earn for a month to get my target??

Hospitality? Events?

2011-05-25T18:15:00.002+08:00

Im an indecisive person. I cant make up my mind when something needed to be choose. I need a great push from the back to motivate me on choosing something.

I've been headache of thinking whether to take up degree in hospitality or events. Is already end of May, June is coming very soon. I need to enroll this coming June, no time to lose. But, what now!!? I wanna get back to hospitality as that is what I'm doing. Again, events is something new to me, sounds interesting, was thinking why not we take up something new since in the young age? But, I cant excel in my hospitality line. =(

Events...with new subjects, gonna take up some additional subjects as well...event management, special events & festivals, live event project, exhibitions management,...etc etc. Sounds all new to me and sounds interesting, isnt it?

Hospitality gonna get back to F&B which I like, accommodations, MICE management, accounting, financing...blah blah blah~ business huh!? But at least I getta excel. How??

There's one of my friend told me "Just go for events. 1st, event will get a better pay. 2nd, in hotel, mostly office work, just imagine in another 10years..where would you be? Still in the same position or maybe just got promote to assistant manager?? In 10years, will you get to open a hotel? Events, in 5 years time you might getta open your own event company. Who knows. " True also. 10 years after, I might still under a small roof. Only we have interest, we have passion. Think again, do I really have the interest in events, if have, is that just because of the pay? or because is something new? Sometimes, I could just have to hate myself for once. Bang on wall for once to knock myself off and forget the day!

Jessie, just go where your heart leads you.

钱，难赚！

2011-05-19T17:38:00.003+08:00

时间一分一秒的过，漫长得很！工作得有点无奈。

等待顾客来“敲”门。。期待的听着cashier机“开嘴巴”的声音。。“倾。。。” 有生意了！

工作天，人潮没多少。泡芙也快冷死在冰箱了。员工，每天都无奈的坐着，期待财神爷可下凡给予生意。可见的是生意难做！一字形容：闷！

周末日，人潮汹涌但要买泡芙的也没几个。价钱起价后还真的要搞些头绪了！一字形容：烦！

天哪！我3个月的岁月~ 就这么过！一点挑战，新鲜感都没。每天反复的做同样的事情。忙起来还真的谢天谢地，我高兴！我现在应该是要享受人生，少年时光。在家翘翘脚，看看戏，找朋友聊聊天，吹吹水。当然，抽空陪陪男友。可惜，现在时间不允许。我们俩的工作时间编排得不合。伤心。唯有迁就啰！每晚webbie见也开心。=)

工作闷而累真的很欠匾！我宁可工作忙而累，至少可给自己一个借口休息。好难受哦！想开学啊！时间哪~ 请你快些吧！飞的~

钱，真难赚啊！！！！！！！

Wednesday Day Out

2011-05-19T01:04:00.004+08:00

A day out on Special Wednesday compensated for the 16th. Im so glad that Mr Cupid get me to meet up and get together with my boy. Gaahh....Im so in love!

Wednesday...movie for sure! Priest...thought was a nice movie but it did not reach my expectation. Just a normal story, not much actions. Prefer Resident Evil.

Roasted lemon garlic chicken for lunch...my boy did the cooking. Awesome! I love.

Italiannies for dinner. I so-liked the bruchetta. Nice nice. It was garlic bread, though. Some flavored cube tomatoes on top. *nom nom nom*

Chatime...yeah yeah! Finally get it! Chatime Roasted Milk Tea...the taste of roasted rice with milk tea. Not bad. I found out why they were so popular. Varieties are wide and special which will not get from others. =)

Owwwhhh...not to forget. I met up susu at Pyramid to pass her my precious teeth for her to do experiment! Yoorrr...another pretty dentist to be. =D After a long time, we finally get to met up because of the teeth, sounds lame? Indeed! =D

Last but not least.....Happy 6 month anniversary!

Im happy, he knows to make my day.

Love my boy. =)

16.05.2011

2011-05-17T00:01:00.002+08:00

16th. Is the lovely 16th.

Our love is building up stages by stages.

A trust, a loyalty, a caring, a understandable,etc etc...makes great couple, so do I.

A Monday blue but 16th make my day. I love! =D

I love my boy ♥♥♥

Surprising Tuesday. Happy Wednesday

2011-05-05T23:11:00.002+08:00

Tuesday night, he surprised me with the appeared in front of me when I was starting to clean up the stall. I never ever expect he will come over, but he did! A real surprised I'll never forget.
Sometimes, a surprise does bring us closer. I love him.

Wednesday, a great date out with lovely boyfriend of mine.
A lunch at Chillis, a nice movie of Red Riding Hood, a great happy hour from Starbucks, a dinner at his house. I feel I'm part of his life now, obviously! =D

My lovely guy. I feel happy with happiness. That's with him, I feel that way. Love him always.

Dead Blog. Revive(?)

2011-04-26T19:41:00.000+08:00

Hello, bloggy! 4 months. Is been 4 months dying in no where. I was too lazy to post up. Somehow, busy as well. This blog is always wordy. Complaint by friends. I just cant stop typing. *geez*

Life story of diploma has ended. That's pretty fast in these 2 years. It was quite a hard time in my final term with the stack of reports, memorized the menu booklet, researched on reports for presentation. Timetable wasn't that pack, but everyday just felt tired. As usual. *eye rolling* 2 weeks of final exam, drove me so crazily every night. I'll not forget how difficult I had faced. Every night, 12am was the time to study. I barely had a great time to sleep - 2 or 3 hours only. There was a day I drank Nescafe black coffee. It helped me to stay awake but after 2 hours I had my hand shivered, felt dizzy. Was a nightmare duh! Practicals exam were just at the border. Just waited the last day, felt so great! Surprisingly, we gotta know our so-called result - Pass/Fail! on the next day. I'd passed. As what they said "Easy to pass, hard to score", is true! I was just too shocked that I got the 2nd highest ranking - Very Honorable Pass. Too happy. Expect the Unexpected! =)

I got this result slip on last week. I was so relief that every of my subject PASS! =D *jump high*

The 4 days 3 nights graduation trip to Penang was awesome! Eat and eat..that's the point to go Penang! *eyes rolling* We were so lucky to stay in a suite room! But...the junior suite was so-not satisfied! Only 1 either king/queen which I dont know, fitted in 4 of us- The couples! I had a terrible 1st night that I cant sleep well and turned out to sleep at the sofa. Overall, awesomeness, greatness, fantastic-ness, marvelous-ness trip! =D

The Saturday, Imma braces girl. =B

F1, 2 days part time job with Do&Co (Austria International Catering) was another fun experience. Racing cars, *wing wing wing wing.....* the sound was super duper freaking ear"sick"! Hurt my ear, painful! Serving, mise-en-place the whole day till night, experienced! I was grateful to see Michael Schumacher & Nico Rosberg, the Mercedes GP drivers! Another thing was, I didnt know this happened till the Indian guest at that table told me...

Guy: Hey girl, where you studying?

Me: Taylor's

Guy: Owh~ Do you know who are they?
Me: Errrmmm....not really.

Guy: Do you know Hoobastank?
Me: Errrrmmmm.....heard that before.

Guy: They are Hoobastank.

Me: ................Okkkaaayyyy *speechless*

Hoobastank! I was in-charge of their table. I served them! But too sorry to say I dont recognise you guys. *blush* The 2 days meal were great with these western food but too bad I was on braces.

The Monday, 11th April is when I started to work. I see the changes of day and night everyday. 3months, Imma awaiting for degree.

Where is Ms Smiley?

2011-01-03T23:22:00.000+08:00

3rd Jan 2011...first day of class. Yes! Im back to uni already. The last term, last year, final exam to face off. Shall say "Goodbye Taylor's" in another 2 more months time. *sniff*

This term really harsh as I've mentioned in previous post. Yes. Harsh. I've faced the difficulties. Reports are still pending but have no time to lose. 11 of them. Hell Taylor's gives such many reports to us! Submission date will be after CNY if not mistaken. Another 1 more month I have to do. *tension-ing*

Up-selling menu is another "obstacles"! Research. Understand. Memorize. These are the 3 main things that gonna knock me down badly. Salads, sandwiches, main courses, soups, desserts, wines, all kind of beverages. I have to do that for every single thing! Now I feel fcuk up this course! *shout* Gosh..!! Why make my life so difficult? Haihs.

Term 6 have no honeymoon. Term 6 have no smiley by side.
Mr Stress is with me.
I wanna back to December all the time.
Thanks my boyfie always trying to motivate me. A big hug to you. Love ya! o(♥.♥)o

All I have to do is just put on a lovely smile to my life.

Salute you, Jessie! ♥

The End, 2010

2010-12-31T18:57:00.003+08:00

Is the end of 2010, welcome 2011!!
A new year awaiting...something new to be experience? The aged is no longer -teen..life is moving on. Perception no longer be childish. What's next?

The first 3mths of 2011 will be a harsh month! I'm gonna knock down by finals. Reports are still pending. How will my 2011 gonna be?? Harsh harsh harsh, stress stress stress!! *faint*
Just wish a miracle will happen. Please send me an angel. Put on a big smile =D

Spent off my one week break was really not-so-bad *ggeezzz*

1. Christmas eve..went to Vincent's house for BBQ night. Then, countdown with my boyfie at The Curve =)

2. Christmas day...Tg Sepat 1 day trip with family...had a great fun even just a day. Went around the small little village. Jalan-jalan cari makan. Evening, stopped at Sepang Gold Coast. Was so relaxing, calm, at the beach. I'm lovin' it.

3. New year eve...went Sunway Pyramid to join the crowds for the last countdown for 2010. =) Welcome 2011. Fireworks was awesome-ness!! Happy New Year 2011!!

What's next on 2011??
Just put on a big smile to face out all problems =D

It's December!!

2010-12-04T14:22:00.002+08:00

1st thing in mind...Santa Claus is coming to town!!
Yess...is Christmas!! Woohoo~ I love Christmas =) How wish I could celebrate Christmas at somewhere better than Malaysia. So, how will I getta celebrate Christmas this year?? *thinking*

Happening December:
Studies are seriously killing me. Assignments were built up like a mountain. Everyone of us was rushing to hand-in. Plus, assessments always come and go. Arrgghh~~ just feel like screaming out to the sea. I would be like a zombie everyday caused by not having a good rest, 3 layers of eye bags *holy shyt!*, dark circle *kinda panda look* All of this make me doesn't look good at all. If only people who dont see me everyday, they would think that Im sick! Goosshhh~~~ The only thing that wanna do is just sleep throughout the days and nights! Even how much eye cream, eye brightening roll on also...it might not gonna "cure" my sleepy eyes! Haihs~ Im so dead!
I really cant imagine how will it be for the next final term! Final assessments = no sleep! Gosshh!!! Just a thought of it and feel like crying out loud! T T

Studies might bring me down but not the group of crazy friends! Crazy everyday for fun! hahaha~~

Im doing great with my relationship. I love him for being understandable. I wouldn't say how long this will last but to me...everyday is gonna be a precious moment. ♥ ♥

Next...I was thinking again and again~ What will my birthday present be?? hahaha~~
Things I wanna have:
iPhone
Digital camera
Laptop
New car =P *this will not happen yet* hahaha
etc. =)

Just wish dream comes true

Again, Love is spreading in the air

2010-11-23T23:20:00.002+08:00

16.11.2010

Love begins.

Cherish, appreciate what the God gives.

Our fate =)

Yes, I love you!

111110 Tragedy

2010-11-11T21:28:00.001+08:00

This was like a nightmare for me in my life ever! Could never forget my 1st accident!
Yes! I got involved in an accident! Seriously, scary!

It happened yesterday morning. I was driving to college for 9.30am class. As usual, I took the Bkt Jalil-Puchong "highway". Everything was moving smoothly on road. I didnt expect this would happen. When I reached Giant Bandar Kinrara, the car in front of me break. Of course, I press on the break, but after that I realized was an emergency break! God damn! I stepped the break paddle all the way down but still cant make it...heard the sound "BANG!" *holy shyt!*

F***ed that 1st driver who did the emergency break and caused this accident to happen! 5 cars bang like bumper car...too bad there isnt a rubber bumper =( I was the 4th car..haihs~ sandwich. Pity the car in front of me also, Altis. Front and back got serious hit. I think he can changed his car already. =X

After that, called up Sean to come over helped me. There were few stupid annoying fellas came over and asking need for help or not to tow. Just ignored! I saw traffic jam on both side the road. This is Malaysian = ke po! They have the common action...turn left, turn right. After an hour, my dad came over..all of us waited for the tow truck to come as my car is seriously damaged! Then, Sean sent me to police station for report. Scary shyt! Gonna pee on pants already! Aiks...saddy!! Everything settled, backed to college! =\

Ok...congratulations to me! Somehow, I know I might face it somedays but that's too early! I just got my license changed, this was the new "present" to me! To show Im an official legal driver on road with the 1st careless I'd made!? My GOD!!!! Unbelievable! Again, I got a record already and a summon ! *sad* haihs!!

Pity my beloved..got cacated!
ICU for 2 weeks. =(

Road in Malaysia isnt safety as what people think.
It brings a nightmare to me.
I'm totally mind dead now!

A lifeless Thursday

2010-11-05T00:01:00.004+08:00

Deepavali eve..I feel slightly lifeless. Some payment job assigned by my dad had done in the morning. Maybank, EON bank, HLB...done! =)

1pm..decided to go Sunway Pyramid to get a new sunglasses for myself as the previous 1 broke without a reason. Just broke. No doubt, is cheap! I always hunt for cheap stuffs c'z I wont be able to hurt so badly after buying it.
But, this time..I went into those like MNG, Vincci etc. where a boutique shop could have accessories. Shop to shop, floor to floor, I started to feel my right leg got pain! Muscle pain. I still insist to search for it! Designs were okay but whenever I turned to the side, was like "OMG!" So-not-nice!!!! I love something plain. As before, I used to buy a white frame but this time tried to hunt for black. =)
4hours of searching...saw ALDO having sales. So, just have a look around and spotted sunglasses! YES! The design was okay, simple! When the price tag showed rm90! Holy shyt! Fine. Placed it back and spotted again with a yellow sticker and much more cheaper! LOL!!! Of c'z I searched....and found a nice 1!! rm63 after discounted! Aiks....1st sight, I love! That was so stylish! A person like me so undecided, I went back to MNG ask for the price and was rm79! Crazy! I better get a branded 100% authentic like Oakley, Prada, Gucci, Rayban...blah blah blah!! Fine. Walked back to ALDO and stunt for few minutes. Finally, I bought it!
I was like "gosshhh....rm63!". Paid already and still thinking "Buy or not? So freaking expensive!" *sigh* my 50bucks just flewwwww~~~~ far far away! =( If my mum knows, I think she will kill me! *sob*

The 1st sight is the one you really wish to have!
No doubt on getting it.
So, take good care of it. =)

Last day of Oct

2010-10-31T23:54:00.004+08:00

Just another last day of October, sad to hear that. *sigh*
So, what's your flavor? aha! It's Baskin Robbins! Of course, my favorite day...always! Almond fudge, choco mint, very berry strawberry, cotton candy,...more to come! Just tried out the mango tango and choco mousse *recommended by Sing Yi, my bestie*

School holidays are coming soon, but too bad not gonna be mine. Why is the time and schedule in university was so much different with high schools!? =( But, still I enjoy my university life! Assignments, projects, assessments and reports are waiting for me to knock you down! I really wanna screw that stupidest 11 reports ever! Screw to the MAX! I haven't even start a shyt thingy also...aiks!! Still in the honeymoon mood. I have to change la! No time to lose!

At the same time, let's welcome November. =)
*time - 12.22am, 1st Nov*
Woosh...stepping into another new month! That's pretty fast huh!? Now I start to worry.... *alalalala* Try my best to get everything done by this week!! =) Cheer!!!

I've gone thru the 2 years P license! Woohooo~~~
I'm now an official legal driver!
Congrats Jessie!! =)

Happy Halloween

2010-10-31T01:04:00.002+08:00

It's Oct 31. What's up?

Happy Halloween!
The Jack-o'-Pumpkin!

Let's Blog!

2010-10-29T23:24:00.002+08:00

Let's do a random blog! Have no longer with blog so far. Lazy as an excuse! hehe

The days in college were pretty good! I love it so much. New environment, new mood on studies! Friends always there to joke about! haha~~ Owh yea...recently quite dying on money! I seriously pokai since college already started to bring in those "branded" shops like Wong Kok *the one and only Chinese restaurant and sells PORK!* =) Aha!
Nothing to talk much about. Just feel happy and hyper in class everyday. My days full with colors! haha..rainbow huh? This is already term5 which means final term gonna be near soon by next year, sounds long but it doesnt as this week is week 3! Im seriously nervous with reports! The 11 reports really drive me crazy! I just have to start doing my reports day by day *haven happen yet* so that I could concentrate on my studies for finals! Holy shyt! haihs....Now is the time to stress off already but Im still having my sweet time! =)

More and more events coming up in college everyday! Could just see people selling things along the walkway,...pheee!!! Especially today "Comm Fest", they were having lotsa games and things to sell off. So-called a concert held too...when I reached college was wondering "what the hell!? which celebrity!?" ==||| Everything goes very well as what I see today, a success event...interesting but I have no chance to go around. Classes are quite pack today and we only have the 1hr break. =(

Ooo yeaa...last week and this week I was having badminton time! How long I've not play that already and really thanks to my friends who bring this up! Last week went 3K, Subang Jaya. Today go somewhere "ulu" where near the Empire! I feel so much better after badminton, sweat like hell...freshen up my mind and the good thing is..I can have a nice sleep. =) Release all stress. Whatever I think off, just smash on the court! Smash on it!

J'ai sommeil maintenant.
Bonne nuit.
*sorry with the crazy french thingy struck into my mind*

Might to be continue...

Sammy's Adventure: The Secret Passage

2010-10-13T23:14:00.003+08:00

Yeappooo!!! Let's cheer for my group of 6 going out once again in a blue moon! How rare to see only from G5 members together. Sing Yi, Vivian, Chester, Donoven, Vincent and me!!! =)

We went for a movie after class while waiting for 7pm dinner at college. We were so undecided at the counter whether to watch Charlie St.Cloud or The Switch or whenever there's no other choices...Sammy's Adventures!!! Of course...we avoided from watching cartoon but ended up we did! haha....Popcorn, drinks, snacks would not be left out!
While waiting to enter the cinema, we saw Chef Tan, former Taylor's lecturer chef with his family. How sweet!!!! After that, found out that they were watching the same movie as us and just sat the row above us! LOL!!!

I was enjoyed watching this cartoon than Alpha and Omega! Seriously, Alpha and Omega so-not-interesting as this. This cartoon reminds me of Nemo! hahaha....and the cute little turtle~~ awww!!!! It's just too adorable! haha...After movie, when shopping for while. I was eventually got caught attention by a red handbag! Oh Gosh....my first sight told me that THIS IS MINE! =X But, I didnt but it! =( 6smth out from Pyramid and back to college for dinner =)

Tomorrow gonna help up for Career Fair at Taylor's MPH!
Because of earning extra money *even not much*...I'll still go for it!
Better than NOTHING! =)

Bonne Nuit =D

12.10.10

2010-10-12T22:16:00.002+08:00

终于的终于

印象深刻的一天，一年的今天

可，已对我没什么意义了。

故事早已结束了。

让我们的故事变成回忆

昨天，在college遇见他！

没有的预感。从他朋友口中得知后，才知道。

但在偶然之下，遇见。不自在的。

反应不过来。只好呆呆的看着另一边的远方。

虽然故事结束
我，依然过得精彩。

101010

2010-10-10T21:32:00.002+08:00

A special day only appears once in lifetime.
It may take another 100 years to see this special date!
Thanks God created the world. Life still goes on.
On a special day, with a special event.
Marriage? How great if it could happen in one. Congrats.
101010, a great day for Chinese which means perfect, wonderful. 十全十美！
What would my day be?

Isn't special to me as long I feel great that Im still alive, living on earth.

Cherish in life.

The Adventure of Broga Hill

2010-10-09T22:55:00.004+08:00

Term4 break, We did something better and healthier! Save some cost and to keep body fit! aha!

This morning, 6am, the crazy gang (Sing Yi, Sean, Donoven, Vincent&friend-Xiao Yi, Wei Heng) came over my house to pick me up and let's go to Broga Hill!! All the way leaded by GPS to destination.

On the way, we saw mist! That was so-Genting! But, of course, wasn't cool. I was shocked that the parking area had to pay for rm2! *geeezzzz* A well-known place have to pay, isn't it? Actually, I'd forgotten what time we started our journey towards the hill. But, I did know we used roughly half an hour to reach the peak so....would that be 6.45am!? Yea...*shocked*

Started at the oil palm estate where was pretty easy and didn't know some much challenging ahead waiting for us! Rocky&steep path, slightly slippery. Steps by steps, we challenged ourselves to climb to the peak! It was really difficult and under-estimated the place! LOL!!! All of us were exhausted!

7.05am, we finally made it ourselves with the energetic body to reach the peak! I was so proud to said that and amused by the scenery but after all was a real "amazed" experience. When I was so enjoy looking at the scenery, ear stuck due to the air pressure! Fine. Then, my visions started to go blur. Fine. I'll rest and thought was really fine! Just in another seconds, double vision came across. Holy shyt! My eyes were just ready to close and I'll faint! Of course, no matter how I'll just try to open from not being close! I could feel that whenever I close, I'll surely faint! So..I sat on the rock to rest. I found wasn't work and felt to vomit.

"Jessie!!! You're so freaking pale! I see no blood circulating!"
"OH NO!!! Both side of your jaws gonna turn blue black!!!!!" *Huh? Did someone said "blue black"? Kidding dude?? So serious?!"

Really difficult for me to force myself in that condition. Force not to close my eyes, force not to fall, force not to vomit.
15mins after...I felt better in me. I shouted and Yes! Im back to normal! Thank God, He "save" me! haha...XD Rest and got some pictures!! That's a MUST!

The lalang path..get parang here!!

The 1st peak...we had made it!!

Bukit Broga 1.7km~ sounds easy huh?

Let's get our body fit...!!!
Build up stamina for next round,friends!

Alpha & Omega

2010-10-09T00:12:00.004+08:00

Movie of the day: Alpha and Omega

Once in a blue moon watching cartoon in cinema, aint bad! My brother so wish to watch Sammy's Adventure so I decided to bring him to iOi mall.
When we reached there already 2.15pm, it was 10mins after the Sammy's screened. Since the next screen started at 3.55pm so we decided to watch this..Alpha and Omega!! I was not really into the cartoon, of course I watched here and there especially it came to the ending part! =D

Two things that made me felt so sucks was the cinema! Sucks MAX! In the cinema, floor wasn't carpeted, seats were so freaking uncomfortable! Yes..I got these for rm6 compared with rm8, rm10...So, just evaluate the cinema by its price! *ggeeezzzzz*

Welcome, October

2010-10-05T16:18:00.009+08:00

"Wake me up when September ends"

Welcome, October!

Im looking forward to this month.

11th, Monday is time for class again. I ♥ =D

Back to college, meet up with friends, the new environment of college...Woosh!! I can't wait to hangout at college. I have no complaints on timetable. But, some sad cases have already happened. The culinary brothers are differing. =( I'll no longer gonna see them in college anymore. Haihs~ sad.
No matter how, studying is the best in life. I do miss my college life whenever I did my training. Miss everyone. Good to be a student.

Proud to be a Taylorian *sometimes* ggeezzz!

1st October, met up with Vian and Jian. We went dinner at Bubba Gump. Actually wanted to "test" out that crazy girl Sing Yi's service. But, she finished her training early. Aiks.
Can't wait to go back college...or else Im waiting Sing Yi back from JB this coming Thursday then plan on our activities! Woohoo! Bring it on!

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On the weekends, auntie and cousins came down to KL for shopping!

The 1st day, I felt so superb, non stop walking at S.Pyramid for 6hours from floor to floor, shop to shop. Tried out the clothes, shoes. I had nothing for myself. Just a window shopping for me. SAD!
After the crazy window shopping, straight for dinner at Sentul, KL! ==||| I was so freaking tired and had to drive. ARGH! Reached home, I was already dying on bed!

The 2nd day, headed to Sg Wang after breakfast. Cousin sis wanted to buy herself pair of heels as she's studying the same course as me. Went around the mall, in and out the shop..of course she got it. If me, I wouldn't imagine how much time I gonna spend on. Kinda fussy. =) Aha! I did bought a slack, that's also because for class.

Heels
Bags
Camera
Netbook
*What else?* =X

八月十五过中秋

2010-09-24T00:11:00.004+08:00

农历八月十五，中秋节快乐！

“滴滴。。滴滴”
短讯一封一封的传出传进，忙的咧！

可惜，今年中秋与往常差远了！

冷清的气氛，让我遗忘了它的存在。

点蜡烛，提灯笼逛花园
当然也忘不了的家家酒。
野花野草当菜煮；milo罐的铁盖当平底锅；点蜡烛起火；砖头当围墙避免风吹熄火 =)
妈咪买的鱼鱼灯笼~ 可爱的 =) 却一把火被烧去了 =(
童年的玩乐却成了今天的回忆。

昨天呢？怎么度过？
一个柚子, 一粒我爱吃的冰皮月饼，一壶中国茶
就简单的，过了一个晚上。

Leisure Saturday

2010-09-23T11:43:00.005+08:00

Last Thursday, the day of 1Malaysia, went over Mid Valley to meet up my cousin for a movie.
Resident Evil: Afterlife was so awesome! I so in love with Milla Jovovich, the main actress!! The super heroin. woohoo!! She was so cool in every scene especially the last scene which got surrounded by zombies!

After the movie, we moved on to Desa Park City. A nice park to walk around, jogging, walk the dogs =) I saw there were so many puppies, dogs~ they were so cute!!!! I ever wish to have a dog but of course it would be a mess!! But, they looked so cute! How wish I could go there every weekends again =)

The beauty of evening

This puppy was super cute!!
*shake shake my butt*

The future star puppy!!

4 of us of the day =)

Get a leisure time, look around the world =)

爱神丘比特~放开我吧！

2010-09-17T19:40:00.002+08:00

爱情说来就来

爱神丘比特，请暂时离开我，好吗？

你，也容许我说 “抱歉”

因为仓促，时间短暂

你了。感谢你的明白。

好不容易从感情里逃脱出来，就好好的享受单身

19岁的单身

2010-09-10T23:12:00.003+08:00

女孩，往往都陶醉在爱情小说
逃不出悲伤，喜悦的情节
幻想与另一半的幸福，喜悦。
爱情小说与童话故事相等，画下完美的句点。

我呢？
爱看爱情小说的女孩
只想把人生画下美好的句点。
无法自拔的幻想！

*今天在书展也狂买了4本爱情小说，当然书名也吸引了我。
偶尔有些书名让我回想从前。但，我放下了！不想了，不买了！*

恢复单身了，不错！
但是
爱神总是在身边环绕！
遇见了他！
我已经快疯了！
我不想再谈什么恋爱了，为何？
为何就在这时候出现？
当然，我不猴急。
只好控制自己的情绪，感觉。

我累啦！
害怕悲剧再次重演
我，害怕再次恋爱
害怕被爱！
因为害怕，只有逃避。
19岁的单身，是我的选择！

爱情故事永远只记载女孩的生活里，难以逃离。

Hate Housekeeping

2010-09-02T21:55:00.004+08:00

Oh no...seriously! Im not gonna be any housekeeper in future!

That's nightmare! Cleaning bathroom without wearing gloves, hands got interact with chemicals.
I could feel my hands are drying now.

Wondered how many bottle of lotion could be enough for me to smooth my hands? =\

With Mummy ♥ ♥

2010-08-26T14:33:00.003+08:00

The day I was off on Friday and so mummy did. That's coincidence =)

A mummy and daughter day out. *aakakaka*
Went to Mid Valley to change the things she bought on the last week. The cream was gonna expired soon..remote control was faulty. Arrghhh~~ change change!
That day I was so blur. We parked the car at Gardens. To shop, suppose to go up instead of down the escalator. Indeed, I told her to went down. hahaha...blur gila! Went down only she realize was up. Then, both of us laugh! haha...I was super blur coz woke up early in the morning at 7am. Got not enough sleep.
After that, went to Jusco change that faulty remote control. There was a form to fill up. I filled that and the "description" part was asking her what to write. This was the dialogue.

Mummy: Write "faulty"
Jessie: How to spell?
Mummy: You dont know how to spell!!?? F-A-U-L-T-Y
Jessie: *writing* F-O-U-L-T-E-Y
Mummy: Is "A", not "O"!
Jessie: okok..."F-A-U-L-T-E-Y"
Mummy: Is F-A-U-L-T-Y!
Jessie: Correct la...F-A-U-L-T-E-Y!
Mummy: Anything la! Faster hand in. *pek chek ald* LOL!!!

After we left, only realize she said "-TY" and not "-TEY"! Coz I heard she said "-tey" with that sound "t" and "y" makes up "TEY!" LOL!!!! We laugh again! hahah!!!

So, we went for lunch. She was asking what to eat since I've so long didnt get to eat all those Japanese food, Korean food, whatever food is so costly! LOL!!! I've just said "TONY ROMAS!" *evil laugh* We got that intention to get into the shop but after that we left and went to Canton-i. RM16++ just to eat wanton mee!!!! @@
Nvm...mummy said I can choose any I want. She will just accompany =) How great! Mummy's girl! Feel happy for that day coz I'm the only one with her on that day. I gotta demand! LOL!!! *smack butt*

十个月的故事，结束！

2010-08-26T13:36:00.002+08:00

终究，放弃。

感觉被紧迫得不已

呼吸也困难了。

只有放弃，我感觉安定。

19岁的我，只想过着19岁的生活。

一个无理取闹的女孩，或许还在成长。

不想长大，但学会了相爱没那么简单

容忍，包容，体谅，关心，呵护。

你身边少了个包袱，

不需因为身边女孩的固执，幼稚透的无理，

感到辛苦，无须被气得喘不过气。

留下的阴影，让时间带我走出来。

我承受不了了。

离开，好过些。

现在，自由了。

我，如今做回自己

爱与朋友的相聚，喜欢与家人的时间

不喜欢被束缚。

那就是我。

该来的总是躲不了。

乘坐时间航空，到下一站，幸福！

Air Asia Fare from rm99!!

2010-08-18T11:30:00.002+08:00

Dammit!! The Air Asia promo for only 3 days!
Today 2nd day.
I wish to go Gold Coast, Taipei!! T T

Travel time...starts from April 2011...That's what I'm going to plan for my graduation trip!
Please bring me up, babeh!! *fat lan za*

舍不得

2010-08-18T11:05:00.004+08:00

经典！
歌词完美

舍不得。潇洒的离开

舍不得-弦子
作词：马嵩惟作曲：张正宗编曲：杨阳

第一次你陪我坐着我的手心是空空的
我知道那些简讯声你努力藏着还怕我难过

**不追问到底为什么是我最后的温柔
想笑着附和说分开是好的
但我们却怎么一起哭了

我舍不得可是时间回不去了
爱你很值得只是该停了
没有我你要好好的

我舍不得最后一次抱紧你了
我们错过的错了就错了
不用担心我我不爱你了

至少你记忆里的我是微笑的
亲爱的有你牵着我的那些日子
真的好快乐

我舍不得可是时间回不去了
爱你很值得只是该停了
没有我你要好好的

我舍不得最后一次抱紧你了
我们错过的错了就错了
不用担心我我走了

一而再，再而三

2010-08-16T00:14:00.004+08:00

一次见，一次吵
两次见，两次闹
再见？翻了？

我固执？我爱闹？
算了吧
反而两星期一次的短暂见面总比好
至少不会吵，不会闹。
我也不无理取闹。

在他面前，我过分的无理取闹是个不可理喻的事
因为自己的过分，看见他恶的一面
是唯一让我觉得恐怖的。
有时，往往想
我忍受的是他的缺点-脾气
偶尔的认真真的有压力
自己可笑的是
还能忍耐那脾气，跟他继续赌气！
每一次的赌气，等于分开的理由。
似乎有毫无选择的余地。

他思想成熟，我却像个长不大的孩子
偶尔大男人主义，直爽
往往我做的事，错。
天真？幼稚？
闹脾气，像被爸爸遗弃在一边的小孩
随他闹，随他哭，直到甘愿为止
再吵着叫爸爸。
或许我只纯粹的耍脾气
却可以有那么多的理由被责骂
还是因为他的个性，我气。

突然觉得距离拉远了
我爱逛街，乱逛；他不喜欢。
我只好想随他，顺着吧！
但偶尔觉得一旦跟他逛时，想回家。
因为他不喜欢。
就像一个小孩不喜欢吃苦瓜，却硬硬的塞进他嘴巴里。
不好受。
觉得自己伟大了吗？
一点都不觉得。
难以捉摸的世界。

是该觉悟的时候了吗？
该从梦中醒过来了。

Movies for off day

2010-08-15T09:28:00.003+08:00

Im back. Just a short post to update my blog.

I wasn't that busy but just too tired to online to update stuffs. Being outdated soon. haha
8 hours of working sometimes killing my mind. Have no time to do other things when noon shift. After work, back home was too tired. Bath, and get myself ready to bed at 12smth everyday. That's gonna be part of my life. I knew it would be quite lifeless but what to do, I bare it! *sigh*

Last Sunday went KLCC to watch Inception. I wasn't a fans of watching movie that have to think the storyline. That's like "why I still have to think while watching movie!?" Dream, dream, dream. That's life. People might control their dream but some might not. What's dream? I created myself? or...because I just think too much of that and cause to dream? haha...That's what Chinese always say "日思夜想" =D

Angelina Jolie...SALT! My next movie.

1st August

2010-08-01T11:40:00.003+08:00

How could you predict what's going on for the next chapter in your life?
How could you just stop the time on the spot?

Nothing could just do that. Time flies, pretty fast. I still have 7 weeks more to go for training. Thx to Le Meridien.

I just love my name - JESSIE

Baskin 31st

2010-08-01T11:37:00.002+08:00

What's on for 31st?

Yes! Baskin Robbins!

On-going Training

2010-07-25T00:01:00.004+08:00

Hey yoo...How great to get back here again!
Im going on training recently at Le Meridien. Im still adapting to the new environment and everything is under-control.
Im doing my front office training. Instead to learn at the front desk, they put me to Royal Club Lounge(RCL) as there is much more relaxing(?) and easy going. Peaceful. At least, I get things to learn little and little, days by days.
Owh yea...the lounge is awesome. Guests are mostly for business purposes. Yeaps =) I like the view which is located at the 33rd floor. Freaking high! hahah...The 1st 2 days the heels which slightly higher really hurt my legs and freaking pain! Skin had even peeled at my right little toe. 0(T T)0
So, another 5 weeks Im gonna prepare to housekeeping. Gosh...everyone said that was a nightmare! Just stay tuned =D

Just the last 2nd day before I went for training was Saturday, went to Bon Odori at Masushita Stadium, Shah Alam.
That was my first and (will it be my last)? It was a horrible scene ever! Crowded like SHYT!! $#*&@#*&%
They had performances on stage. Food stalls around and I hate to buy foods!! People were rushing and I even had to "slide" in just to get A FOOD!!!!! Stupid shyt!!
Only a word to describe- HORRIBLE!!!! If wanted to go, YES! EARLY IS ADVISABLE!

I've stalked on this uncle ... so damn pro gadget!

Let's move together!

I hate the crowds! ISH!!!

iHope: No Nights

2010-07-15T22:40:00.002+08:00

The night has come. An usual night but brings me some frighten in bed.

Not anything freak me off, but memories, dreams.

Memories.
I was thinking..from the starting till now.
But, the more deeper I think, I got afraid.
Think better? Memories? I've tried.
But, there's always the same scene came across my mind. Why?
Is that only the memory I kept or you gave me?
Im afraid to close my eyes.
Im afraid to think again and again every night?!
The more I think, the more it hurts.

Dreams.
I've dreamt awful.
1st was saw someone being pushed down from a building.
It happened in a school.
A guy sat on the wall, beside the corridor. A guy pushed him from back easily.
Everyone standing seemed to watch a show(?)
The guy fell off and hurt, dead(?) on scene. People felt normal. How horrible was that?
Blood...even a girl uniform full of blood. But seemed nothing happen. Steady.
Just as a normal person. *awake from dream*

The 2nd was mummy and daddy rejected him.
Yes, being rejected.
I've no idea how was that story comes and goes. But, I only remember he being rejected.
Not me, but parents. Dislike him?
Was so real...I eventually got scared. Heart pumping real fast.
Tried to wake myself up. To tell me not real. I did.
It was so awful, horrible! My heart was pumping really fast.
Calm myself and went to bed again.

Why I was being "control" by dreams?
Why my dreams were so awful? Scary?
Sad case =(
How could I hope to just open my eyes through the night, and close in day.

人生≠戏

2010-07-15T13:57:00.004+08:00

戏如人生；人生如戏
“谈情说案”给了我这个启发

感情
讲究缘分
到底能证实什么？

朋友的缘
恋人的缘
家人的缘
因为缘，牵引人与人之间的生活

女孩与家人的缘
从小时候就被注定的
注定在这环境下成长
注定与爸爸妈妈成为家人
注定成为这个家的一分子
童年的回忆
虽然没有所谓的河流，泥鳅，蟋蟀
更没有骑着脚踏车与朋友上学
但
成长在城市里的小孩
还是过得如此，一般

童年，幼稚园里的小孩
一起上课一起荡秋千
在家，女孩独自一人玩家家酒
回想起还蛮可笑的
与家人的互动当然~
是回忆里最美好的

渐渐的
女孩也长大了
可是
却失去与家人的互动
沟通少了
羡慕别人可以跟家人谈心
女孩却难以开口
想与妈咪谈心
但没给自己那机会
想了解实际情况
但把它隐藏在深处
突然好想念那小小的屋子
虽小但生活如此的平凡，简单

女孩在怎么长大
还是家人的乖乖女
爸爸妈妈的灰姑娘
19年不变
就算女孩在交往了
女孩的感情事
爸爸妈妈还是会管
女孩何时成长？
想踏出家门一步却会想还是乖乖待在家
因为是女孩！所以爸爸妈妈特别紧提她
曾让妈咪担心到心都快急死
只因为我没接到她电话

拥抱，少了
最后的拥抱在何时？
当兵时。
因为离家3个月，爸妈的第一次探访
我哭泣，紧紧地抱了妈咪
那是我永远无法忘掉的感觉，回忆

感情呢？
看了“谈情说案”
突然觉得与剧中的他们似乎有相似
我不是什么黄花闺女，家里不过如此平淡
因为上次发生的事件
让我一直觉得现在的家并不简单
从小小的双层屋变得大大的。
家里的暖也少了
因为两个不同世界的
不能被牵引
会带来无名的压力
因为家人的要求
也许会以带刺的方式说话
拒绝两人的来往

一个平庸，一个富裕
因为这样就应判死刑
戏里的男孩
一字一句都深深地伤害到女孩
再也无法面对那段感情
可是
因为某事故发生在男孩的妈妈
女孩的一个举动
让那女人改变心意
为什么？
一个事故，一个举动
就能感动到他人
简单的让两人再一次相爱

人生如戏
我能不赞同吗？

Bored isn't good

2010-07-13T14:11:00.000+08:00

Can I have a remote control to forward to next Monday? Everyone has gone for training while I have to wait another week =( Im bored to death! Drama everyday from com to tv. Gosh!

Whats my plan again for this week?? *scratching head* Im just "prison" at home...watching drama and eat! Gaining weight? Maybe =(

Bon Odori on this Saturday. Still considering whether to go or not...hmm! Friends...my friends all went for training already. Anyone will go?

Movies? Yea...how great to go for a movie but again, no one!

Feeling not well today and extremely tired then day before. Whats going on?? *sigh* Time to bed, Tchao!

July [Random]

2010-07-09T17:59:00.005+08:00

Updating my blog once a month? =X
Actually I really have no idea to post up a thing. For the past few weeks were really busy on assignments and assessments. Study hard for assessments. Besides facebook, nothing more can do.

1st July
As kitchen commis. The word commis to us is like helper..a chef with a helper (we are the helper). But turned up to be the other side!! WE COOKED! *swt* Seniors served. Erm..a great experience on so-called big production(?) Vivian and I almost peeled the basket of potatoes but luckily only half of them! *phew* We in-charged with the....*erm*.....baked potatoes?? Anyway, it used to bake! LOL...All of us had our own job...from appetizer up to dessert...WOOTS! Settle everything, clearing up around 2smth noon..Tchao!

2nd July
The last day of assessments. I was no mood to do any studies on Malaysian Studies! In exam hall, I just did anything I knew. Happily, merrily, stepped out from the hall! Finally! Everything had ended up! After the exam, we planned out birthday surprised for Chester =)
- Gather at lakeside carpark
- I in-charged on holding the cake, others hide behind the cars
- Chester came. Some of us sang birthday song for him
- Others ran out, gave him a big blast on flour!
- Me! "Slapped" him with the rm11 cake!

That was the horrible surprise ever! My black shirt eventually turned WHITE! *swt*
Last day of assessment, last day to meet each other. See you peeps in the next 3 months =)

4th July
Together with dear, we went to Sg Wang early in the morning. He gotta joined an event of searching DJs which organize by one of the radio station.
- 10 sharp went for registered
- 1pm, event started
- Qualified for 2nd round (4pm)

While the moment I was waiting, I went walked around and AGAIN! I bought some girlish thingy!
Eyeliner at Elianto =X rm8 ONLY!
Eye make-up proof and mint flavor lip gloss at Etude House with 20%
I was satisfied to buy that eye make-up proof! hahaha.....my eye make up gonna no longer fade and also oil control. =) Especially the eyeliner =(
That's always a worst on shopping alone! Nonstop spending!

- 4pm, event started
- Showed their talent
- 5pm, results (Unfortunately, he didn't make it)

Anyway, a good experience for him and he did great.

7th July
Went Mid Valley with Vivian, Donoven, Wei Heng
This time only 4 of us. But, I got a great day spending out with them. Teppanyaki for brunch(?). How great Vivian had this idea, I have no longer eat that and forgot when was the last time. A window shopping as usual for girls. She just bought a long purse from Sembonia with 20% cost rm183! *swt* But, it looked nice. Me? Nothing to spend on besides FOOD!
After a round of walking, we had a great stop at Baskin Robbins for the Pink Day =) 2 junior scoops cost rm7.90 haha!! Ice cream always a best choice for me to ease down everything. Rum raisins and almond fudge....WOOTS!!! The rum raisins as everyone knew it had a taste of alcohol! hahaha....I wished I wont get dizzy after that *silly*
We needed some drinks after that sweetening ice cream and went down to Nyonya to have a tea time =) Non stop chit chatting and crazily laugh. People eventually would look at us. hahha XD
5.30...time to leave and say goodbye =(

Happy 2nd Anniversary, bloggy!

2010-07-03T12:25:00.003+08:00

Yeaps!

Happy 2nd Anniversary for my blog =)

Is been 2 years accompany me till today...woots!

I din really realize this long .... haha!

Anyway, will always here again to blog MORE!

I love blogging!

♥♥♥

相爱 · 没那么容易

2010-06-30T14:42:00.003+08:00

今天两道彩虹出现在我眼前
微妙的
第一次觉得天空是美的
心情是好的
你的出现是要告诉我：今天要过得比昨天好，明天要比今天好？？

三天的晚上
一件事情换来了这场局面
是一种糟蹋？耻辱？
或许我没想过事情的严重性
让你有那么不乐观的想法
或许是因为我用词错误换来的局面
邋遢(?) 何谓邋遢？
当时我还以为是那样，所要表达的是如此
但看来是我错了
是我把事情闹成这样的
一个词却引来的悲剧

三天的晚上
三天的眼泪
三天的争执
三天的脾气
若真的不配，为何我选择与你走到现在
我承认我不够坚强
懦弱，逃避，害怕面对！
眼泪代表我的脆弱
眼泪代表我的愧疚
一切要后悔也来不及了
再怎么解释于事无补
因为心里有个刺
永远留下的刺
就算你原谅了我
我还是会自责，我当时没经过大脑的想
邋遢这两字永远都是个刺
因为它我造成这三天的争吵

对不起在多说也没意义了
但还是要跟你说：锦峰，对不起

今天同样的
我不晓得是上天在玩弄我
还是想告诉我什么
在one fm电台竟讨论起这话题
“你的爱情是否坎坷？你曾被父母反对过你跟女友/男友在一起吗？”

当时听到了有位听众说
“有啊~ *忘了什么原因* 既然父母反对，我们也就这样分手了”
因为父母的反对，因为尊重，我们必须服从？是这样吗？

突然觉得爱情真的好难
我真的遇到了瓶颈
遇到了这一切的考验
是老天的安排吗？
还是一切都是命运？

我以为
爱情真的可以很简单
无忧无虑的
但
我错了。
它可以遇上种种的挫折
要我们站在同一阵线上解开那些结
只有闯过艰难的爱情
才能到下一站幸福吗？

爱情就像是个迷宫
寻寻觅觅的找寻出路
但不知道
该花上多少的时间·精神·体力
只为找到那出路的光
在爱情
只为找到那幸福的光

独自一人时
脑海只回旋着三天所发生的事
听到的每句话
突然我有个疑问：

“到底是你无法接受我身边的事与物还是都要大家来配合你呢？一言难尽”

Always a gather

2010-06-29T15:18:00.005+08:00

Finally, the most stressful subjects were finished! Yoohoo~~ *high max*
Yesterday, after exam immediately 9 of us went over 1U to watch movie =P 2 movies were under considering, tossed the coin and Prince of Persia was our choice...Finally, I gotta watch this movie which desperate for so long! haha...

As I thought, it didn't bring my expectation down =) Im satisfied~ the actions were so awesome! And not to forget the main actor - Jake Gyllenhaal (Prince of Persia) damn yao yeng! Woots! *scream to the max* XD
One thing to highlight...the seats in 1U cinema was really awesome! It was so freaking comfortable and I just felt like sleeping! haha...What if whenever I wanna watch movie, could I just choose there? hahaha....

*next movies!?
Toy Story 3
Knight and Day
Karate Kid
Twilight Saga: Eclipse
...etc!*
Anyone with me!? =(

After that 2 hours movie, went to Kepong to have our dinner -Loh Mee =) But end up, that stall didn't open, went to Bukit Manjalara but the shop we wanted didn't open as well!!! Out of ideas, we just bump into Deutsches Gasthaus which serve the German Cuisine, German sausages their signature. That's a restaurant & pub. The football freaks were all gathered at the deck to watch the football match! That's just a great combination! =)

The price as what I've thought...Price Killer! It started of from rm20++!! = =||| As I've limited financial, a spaghetti cost rm18 is just nice for me! haha...Vincent ordered the sausages platter was just enough for 3 person! =) Juicy sausages! Woots!!! The German style of hot pan rice was full of prawn's aroma!! AWESOME!!!
Not to forget the taste of a German beer, 9 of us were great to share a glass. Everyone just got a sip for that! That beer was really just nice with that mild taste.
A night just ended up like that. That dinner cost us around rm398 as what we expected! =D Anyway, a great dinner I have!

*Picture isn't with me, failed to upload =( *

Happy Daddy's Day

2010-06-19T17:27:00.003+08:00

20 June, Daddy's Day to celebrate =)
My dad, unfortunately, he has to work....how sad!
But, is better he went to work this morning and ONLY we got the chance to buy thing for him

Mum, bro and I went Sunway Pyramid this noon...and I planned to buy him a wallet since his already not presentable, torn here and there~ so that's the chance to get a new for him =)
Directory...to House of Leather! Yea~ from what we see around here and there mostly can be considered but I was just undecided! So..walked off to other shops~
Quality really much different compared to the rm50 and rm100...now I know!! =) So...for quality purpose...I chose the expensive which cost rm139 with 30% discount! Woohooo!!! =)
Again...I'll surely bum into shops for clothes! haha...and bought 3 clothes from Cotton On =P

Night, steamboat for dinner, daddy wasn't satisfied and so we bought 2 pieces of cakes from Secret Recipe: Choco Indulgence & Cappuccino Cheese...Im so in love with that cappuccino cheese...Wooo!!!! Then hand in daddy's new wallet...yea, he IS SATISFIED! =)

That's all for the day =)
Tchao! Bonne Nuit

*I coincidentally met Ms Prue at Sunway Pyramid AGAIN!!!!
That's called The FATE!*

Fair and Square

2010-06-15T21:57:00.003+08:00

Sometimes we cant get things that we expect

Heart sinks.

I do feel the way

But, we play fair and square in life =)

Still, I, personal feel that we did a great job on that video!
Though it was slightly long but satisfied =)

Day 12 of June

2010-06-14T13:36:00.001+08:00

The day 12 of June

Our 8 months "journey"

Still on-going "journey" till see-no-ending "road"

吵架，变成习惯了

你生气我无助

之后就想赖着你

哭泣，已成习惯了

因为你让我变了爱哭鬼

我的软弱

让我依赖你

Love this recently 《因为爱 - 韦礼安》
Sings out my feelings....That's my thought

Still, says "ILY"

Happening June

2010-06-11T21:50:00.005+08:00

June, half of year had gone! The busiest month for me as well with assignments, projects, assessments! Owh great...everything in last minute job and finally SETTLE! It comes to the end! =)

Im just too tired recently with no idea what's going on...sleep late? My eye bags are getting worse from day to day even a light make up could not cover up my sleepy eye =( Im just sad with that.

Yesterday night, had a great big birthday celebration for a lecturer. It was a big boom to him! Yea, we planned it last minute and even the cake they bought was in a rush too (before the shop really close) ... I have no idea with that planned! We planned to "cheat" him to the open space carpark near Asia Cafe with the help of ms Vivian, then we gave him a BIG SURPRISE! Just by hiding ourselves behind the car and rushed towards him with a packet of FLOUR! GOSH! Bathe him with FLOUR!!! *big laugh* He turned "fair"! And, of course, everyone kena 99! I was just standing there and flour poured from the back! Holy shyt! My black shirt and skirt turned to be WHITE! *geeesss* even my bag too! =( So afraid to wash with water ....haha!! 12am went back home peacefully! *peace*

The same night again....I'll CURSE a BASTARD 99!!!!
HE'S JUST TOTALLY AN IDIOT BASTARD!! F OFF YOU!! That night, after dinner with dear, I went to a mart to get something for the "party"! Just the moment I walked in...searching for something! THIS FARKING IDIOT BASTARD.....GOSH! *I just dont wanna tell anything here, I just cant stand that!* Dont ever ask me to TELL!! NOT EVEN A WORD TO MENTION! Im just too afraid of that and I'd cried in front of my friends =(

I'LL CURSE YOU TO DEATH!!!!

June, on the 5th, went to Cameron with the college trip for just a day. Lecturers who planned this event and we had a great fun there =) The main purposed to there was to visit the tea plantation and blah blah blah..not more ONLY TEA PLANTATION =( Anyway, it was fun with the off-campus trip and with lecturers we HIGH MAX!! =D

June, dear achieved for his dream as a DJ in 988 =) He successful to join in for training next week...yeaps! Congrats to you =)

Nothing more to talk about...lazy to type...
Wordy =S

Last minute in life

2010-05-31T17:40:00.005+08:00

My jobs are always last minute!
Sometimes last minute job brings out good results and vice versa... why izit I like doing things in last minute rather than in advance!!?? ARGHH....

Assignments are like mountain...assessments are on their way...group projects? There are 2 pending...*gaga* Im going too high and excited for the jobs, racing with time! Woots!! *insane*
Soon, my mind will "break down" =P woops! Just in this moment...I feel like going cinema to watch movies...so desperate to watch every movie shows in cinema!!!

Someone could just bring me!!??!!

There's gonna be one assignment to pass up but I havent start a shyt yet! Contents need up to 10 pages and I could even write story already! SHYT! Wednesday even worst! French assessment and I cant imagine how am I gonna get rid of this language when I read it!

POURQUOI FRANçAIS!!???

JE NE COMPRENDS PAS!!!

On the way to CHANGE

2010-05-28T19:50:00.005+08:00

This so called morning went Mid Valley with mummy & brother .... we went into this restaurant - Rak Thai for our brunch =D

Thai cuisine, kinda different! The laksa I'd ordered was the Burmese Laksa...tasted slightly sweet, something different to me =)

Iced Lemongrass
Slightly with the taste of barley, mix with lemongrass *special to me*

This is the Burmese Laksa *forgot the name already*
Taste slightly sweet

Tomyam Mihun with Mango Salad

BBQ chicken *taste like satay(?) or mummy said like pizza hut's deli wing*
served with sticky rice ( cantonese: lo mai fan)

OUR BRUNCH!!! =)

-------------------------------SKIP------------------------------------------

Mummy went Sasa to buy her lipstick while I was not there
Then, met with her...We went in Sasa again
Actually I didnt mean to look for cosmetics, just in a sudden, mummy reminded me about the interview and front desk stuffs~ and yea...headed to cosmetic counter *swt*
The first thing to my mind was the eye shadow...but have no idea which to get, bumped into the eyeliner...mummy asked to get the black 1 but I felt so dirty with that after drawing~ But in the end, I got that black 1...backed to eye shadow again, asked for consultant!

The problem is, after getting a consultant, they surely recommend this and that kaw kaw 1!!! Eyeliner, eyeshadow...those already costly because of that eyeshadow from Kate! = =|||
After I wanna take a moved, she asked me for mascara! Hell weh...I was stunt at the moment, looking eye-to-eye with mummy *eye communicate* LOL! Then, she shocked me up by so-called DEMO ON MY EYES!!! Yea, I bought that mascara with that stupid eyelash curler...BB cream as well *damn expensive!* rm95!
Everything sum up...rm200++ just on eyes!!! Exaggerate weh!! After that, no more shopping already, quickly balik! hahaha

Cyber Colour Eyelash curler
Dr G BB Cream
PUPA Multiplay Eyeliner
Kate Eyeshadow
Super Dolly Mascara

High Heels Fever

2010-05-26T23:59:00.003+08:00

Im so into heels recently...No idea on why but just looks simply gorgeous!

Heels...WOOTS!!! That day went Aldo in 1U....Bloody hell! Those heels look damn freaking GORGEOUS!!!! But pricey =( Even there was 70% off .... haihs! That's what called branded!

Now Im planning to get my very own heels....Training allowance gonna spend on my heels! *muaahahahaa* Charles and Keith, Aldo, etc. Im gonna be yours one day!

Aldo Peep Toe =)

GOSH!!!! Love wedges heels~

Charles and Keith....woots!

Online Shopping.....Bloody Hell!!! Cant resist them~

My target for training.....

ALLOWANCE FOR SHOES!!!!

Blast Out Bollywood Night

2010-05-21T15:12:00.003+08:00

YES! We finally did it so great *in my view point* It just gave a BOOM to everyone, I know is kinda "cold" but we the crew have to did something to "heat" back! jajajaja

G4 and 6 started all in the afternoon to set the tables, get things ready, etc. We G5 after the front office class rushed to help the last "touch up" here and there~ Sometimes everything gets stuck with insufficient stuffs but there's always a turning point to think about to change~ That's what creative minds get started off! haha....

Skies getting darker and darker...lights started to turn on and there's when indicated the night gonna began! haha...We the girls started to make all over on face from an eyeshadow till mascara! I was asking Kah Wen to help up and there goes my first time to make up! =D Awww~~ There's always the first time I got so no idea on how to make up and yea~ the foundation make me even fairer! *swt* No more for me, I just love my natural look! =) That's what natural beauty is =)

The night started out with the opening dance...performed by us, it was just too awesome! XD MC for the night, Anson and Chef Kartina! I was shocked to see chef dressed...I thought was which lecturer?! XD The food presentation conducted by Vincent and Sean with a so called "catwalk"(?) hahah...no idea with that~ When food was served everyone started so busy on serving and clearing till the mid of the night event....DH36, the juniors performed! Then followed by us with a passing rubber band game...for sure lecturer involved too! haha...Mr Anshul and Mr Gopi with the most called not to forget Mr Mayukh as well! hahah...These 3 lecturers were playful though~ Sporting(?) =D Next was our dance performance again which involved the kitchen crews and servers...The Dance Floor! Again, followed by story telling game...in the very end of the day, lecturer's dance performance rocks the whole restaurant! AWESOME MAX! Vivian, Shien and I went too high till everyone was looking at us "Are they crazy?" XD XD Nah..that was just my thought!

After guests were being "shoo" out from the restaurant, we started to do clearing, turned over to the "old" look! XD With the helped of everyone included the lecturers, we finished off fast and a random brief.....not to miss out that chicken dance too! hahaha XD

The night ended with a great ending and the effort we put in was worth! Behind of the scene no one knew...but just kept it as our mistakes to correct over again~ Anyway, the night was a big BOOM! It just an unforgettable moment to have!

The girls

TCHAO! That's the end of the night!

Sympathy isnt the way to show!

2010-05-18T23:14:00.003+08:00

Sorry for the rude-ness of the post...
I just shouting out loudly in my blog, no offence!

What the hell is her problem now!?
Why izit making everyone so frustrated baru happy ka?! STUPID SHYT!
I really dont understand why this kinda dumb-ness person exist in our team!

What the hell she's trying to do now?
What the hell she's trying to show now?
Fucking annoyed!
She thought that she's a robot? Can do everything all-in-one?!

PLEASE LA! YOU STUPID DUMB ASS!!!! Dont show your emotional to everyone seemed to get attention! That's the most annoying way ever!
Are you just trying to show how good is your leadership?! You could even do better than the others?! Just SHUT YOUR MOUTH AND STAND ONE SIDE!

We dont need another team leader to lead us!
We dont need another restaurant manager to tell us how to do the layouts or whatever it is!
We dont need another entertainment team leader to show us what to do!
We dont even need another deco team leader!

We are happy to choose our leader in the majority votes! So what's your problem now!?!
Things related to team leader mau campur tangan, stuffs related to restaurant manager also mau campur tangan, same goes to entertainment and deco! Fuck off la!
We need a teamwork! Not to see a person solo! If you so desperate to solo, please leave la!

You're just forcing people to appreciate you, thanks you for what you have done for the event?! FORGET ABOUT IT LA~
You think all of us would bow to you and said "Owh~ thanks so much for doing all the stuffs for us! You're so good!" DONT EVER DREAM THAT! You just making everyone to hate you, frustrated towards you!

Cried once, is a sympathy...we know! Cried twice, is an annoyed which you are too emotional! No one cares to bother! Who cares you cried....you think people will still care you by asking bullshyts!? No way man! You just stop your fucking emo face! That's the part I really feel like slapping you left and right in N times! What the hell you wanna cry to show sympathy and people will think you have put in so much afford for this event!?

PLEASE LA! No one mean to ask you did for everything! You're just too responsible - that's OVER! TOO MUCH! You're under entertainment team and what the hell you wanna go "ke po" with others! Comments or ideas, yes you could give! But you too bare in mind what you should do and shouldnt! = =|||

IF CAN .......

JUST LEAVE WITH YOUR BLOODY FUCKING EMO FACE LA!
BLOODY HELL DUMB ASS!!!!

The responsible to-be OVER-RESPONSIBLE

2010-05-17T23:43:00.002+08:00

I dont get it

Why izit some people they so responsible for EVERYTHING!?
Is that the way to get more appreciate from others?
Is that the way to show how "responsible" you are?
Is that the way to "forcing" people to respect you?

So those people might think "I do everything, I get to treat better?"
Others will see you in "Wow~ you are so hard-working! So responsible!"
I really dont get any point of that!! What's wrong with those people who are so freaking RESPONSIBLE!!??

That's too much either. Makes me feel that they are trying to show something! Show off? Show how good you can do? No way...Everything encounters a teamwork! But, there isn't and you just said "I've done everything for all of you but dont get appreciate" What the hell!!?? = =|||
Okay, I might bit too frustrated on what those people done! I do appreciate for everything those people did~ but that's not the way! I just feel so irritating! annoyed!

No offence...I really do feel that!

Just feel sorry to say that I really cant stand the way she did! I might be afraid of telling to everyone but not in my blog anyway.

If anyone knew who I'm talking about, sorry for that...
Please, I just wanna expressed out my feelings

哭过就好了

2010-05-17T22:48:00.003+08:00

超越朋友的极限？

从那天
你有了自己的两人世界
我静静的撤退
但
人就是那么的自私
我自私
想把你从他身边拉走
遗弃的恐惧
表面不怎么样
却把事情闷在心里

慢慢的累积
变成忧伤
哭过。

哭惟有的方式
释放了。

哭过就好了

真的
现在雨过天晴

今天
因为你的眼泪
紧紧地抱着
努力的安抚
却
不知觉的

我眼泪滑过了脸颊

Im up to....

2010-05-15T01:35:00.002+08:00

Recently quite busy with the event (Orientation Night) coming up next Thursday for the juniors DH 36...As seen Im in the entertainment team, have to stay back for these few days to practice again and again to make perfect - Practice makes Perfect! =)

College life is just normal as usual...some sadness couldnt say out loud so much...and Im feeling slightly better now, Thanks dear for listening and dont ever to be "giam siap" with ur shirt la!!!! *ggrrrr*

Week 5 is just coming in so soon which is next week =( Sad for it c'z I gonna be no longer in college for another 3 months, out for industrial training again! haihs....Just wait for pending the hotel to call up for interview now....excited weh!!! haihs...I cant imagine how would I be for the interview....hands started to shiver?! haha...XD not gonna think that yet!!

Lovely of 12 May
7 month of us
Everything just goes well *altho not* aha!
I'll remember what we have gone thru =)

Lunch is always a WANTS

2010-05-15T00:43:00.005+08:00

The day with that great time just in a sudden, class cancel and so I decided to skip for the next class which Malaysian Studies...I hate it kaw kaw!! 3 hours break time for the others, I drove them out for lunch with many thoughts of where to go for lunch!! Undecided people!
In the end, Wei Heng got up an idea to Plaza Kelana for unlimited refilled spaghetti...yea~ no doubt! Is UNLIMITED!!! hahaha

That's really interesting which we can eat till vomit(?) ... haha!!! Sounds disgusting...Price? 14.80++ for everything even there's no charges for the next round! GODLIKE!!!!

When we reached there, one expression "WAAAHHHHH!!!!" Wah because of the environment! hahaha...seriously it would be a nice place for couples or gathering maybe to be for dinner(?) Imagine the lights up....wow~ sat beside the lakeside..wow~ haha!!

Louisiana =D

Refillable ice lemon tea

Chicken Sausage Spag

Seafood Spag with light sauce
I just love it!

Chicken Carbonara

Vege Stir-fried Spag
Taste slightly same with light sauce

White fish with Pesto sauce Spag
This to me is disgusting =X

The layout at the deck
beside the lake =)

68.10rm
ate 6 plates of spaghetti! hahahaha

The 4 of us went for the nice place for lunch! =)

Happy Mummy's Day

2010-05-12T18:56:00.004+08:00

I know is quite a late to post up this blog, anyway, to update my blog with this special day isnt that good? =)

The very Sunday night, together with my family and cousins to Kissaten, iOi Boulevard to have Mommy's day dinner. As what I thought it wont be as many people as he 1st time we went, but out of my thought =P

Yes, I visited the 2nd time =) I be the "boss" for a night cz I treated my family! Being a good girl for that night...hehe!! They served set dinner which the price can still be considered with the quality of food =)

As usual, lazy to type, pictures tell millions of words =)

I just love the spaghetti with light sauce, godlike!!

Mommy's Fried Oyster bento set...freaking oily
Dont give any good feedbacks

Daddy's chicken curry with rice

I like that egg very much!! WOOTS!!! >.<
*slurpppp*

Yes! I paid for this!!!
166.65rm =)

Happy Family =)

内疚的心 · 失败的泪水

2010-05-02T23:19:00.002+08:00

昨晚与朋友聊
告诉了他近来的状况
当然 - 感情事

一句“我们分手吧”结束了那段恋情
毫无留下的余地
狠狠的
自私地
直到现在
无给予合理的理由
就如此
变成最熟悉的陌生人

现在
我仍然过得不错
遇见他
发现感情上的变化
不一样的情节发生
吵架
或许让我对这感情有所信心 *傻*
或许会像个计时炸弹
或许让我觉得有被关心
意味着前所未有的感觉
被他的手牵着是幸福的
生气时的每字每句
仿佛在告诉我 “是时候长大了！”
眼泪偶尔会随着情绪而落下
想念他最想做的一件事 - 紧紧地被抱着
始终我还找不到那感觉

他的付出
我看得见
我的付出
就只有他的四分之一
他的失望
让我内疚
我也许已排列在失败女友的列表里
因为我的失败
我不懂得关心
我不懂得同情
我不懂得付出
男朋友有事求救
我却没能做到

他或许问到的
“为什么你是KL人？”
“为什么你不是与我住在同一座楼？”
“为什么要见你都那么难？”
我无言以对
我自问 “为什么为什么为什么？”
为什么我想念他时却不能在他身旁
为什么他生病时我却照顾不了他
为什么当他需要我时我却无法出现
种种的为什么
堆积成山
内疚的心越来越深
失败的泪水不由自主地落下

我害怕吵架
就像计时炸弹
随时会炸开
怎么补救也没能找回那碎片了

我 · 软弱
何时坚强？

Troublesome of the "antique" car

2010-05-02T01:16:00.003+08:00

A 13 years old car might give me problems!

I just care on driving but not really notice anything on the car, not even a sight of checking it! The 1st time, I drove back home with a punctured tyre that I didnt notice AT ALL!!
Then, handbrake problem, alignment and balancing not in place. Yea, spent again for it!

The next one just happened on the Friday evening - TYRE PUNCTURE! Hell shyt! Why izit my car always give me problems!!?? =(
7pm+, I was on my way back from college...Just by starting the engine, held on the steering, something went wrong! The steering was out of control!! It was so lose to the left and tight to the right! As my thought, it was just the alignment problem again but why izit so serious?! Fine then, I drove out from college and really felt something went very wrong! Drove back to college and called up Vincent for help!

"Tyre punctured already!" he told me. I damn pissed off already coz I tot of going to PGH to get the hotel's stamp so urgently for the stupid appraisal form! So, no choice~ I just postponed that and called up dear to help me since Vincent was rushing for the dinner at college!

Dear came, helped me up on changing the tyre...and yea, it went so wrong again! = =||| Just in that right time, Vincent came and helped! He took out every gadgets he had in the car which really ALOT! = =||| He was not sure whether which was the right way to jack up the car, so asked help from securities! And GOD DAMN! Many and many people came around to look! I was like "Is that so serious that so many people need to come and help and is just a tyre!?"

He found the right point, jacked up the car, 2 guys started to change the tyre! In another 10mins, my dad came over and everything settle! LOL!!! Daddy daddy....!!!

So thanks to dear and Vincent on helping me to change that bloody tyre! I wish there's no more problems gonna happen!! Damn pissed off!! Haihs....

不能说的秘密

2010-04-30T07:48:00.003+08:00

看到他

超无奈！

跟他说话，想吐出三字经

不晓得那里“得罪”了我

就是越看越不爽！

每次若无其事的看

他与别人走在一起

但，就是感到是一种错误！

与他坐在同一桌

选择哑巴

我再也不是以前的我了

想找个人让我发泄

好让我可以松下口气

却把它隐藏在内心深处

辛苦的

我自私确实！

之前劝导的是我

现在要痛苦的是我

命运吧！

Piss off Taylor's!

2010-04-21T23:59:00.005+08:00

Damn freaking piss off Taylor's lo!

WALAO!! Makan duit number 1! Doing silly stuffs number 1!

Okay, as for normal, classes on 1st week wont conduct much...2 hours class 20mins DISMISS!Because also on the 1st week, no classes to be taught, DISMISS!!= =|||
Fine~ How bored to have such a class and go no where in campus besides the library =)

The 3rd day in T4, while having econ class with Mr Eugene, here it goes the announcement from the speaker "Jika berlaku kecemasan blah blah blah then in English version - ......something force alarm, please leave the building immediately" WTF WEH!!! Every student gotta evacuate from the building..loitering around at the corridor, walkway, go no where as we dont even know where to gather since they didnt inform! All of us started to wonder what happened, the crowds was like out of control - turned to be a chaos! In half an hour time, news from no where said "back to class"! I really got a BIG "SWT" with me at that very moment! Nothing happened! Back to class
When class started to conduct in just a few minutes time, suddenly this comes around "Sorry for the blah blah blah what force alarm due to some technical problem!" = =|||

I GOTTA PAY 6000++rm and MY PRECIOUS TIME BEING WASTED FOR NOTHING!!

New campus really sucks la!
The very 1st day Charmaine told us that the food court at campus is under the KLCC management! *swt* I dont get any surprised since dear has told me earlier! Why izzit have to be under KLCC management!!?? We have to afford the food price that cost above 5bucks than 3bucks which could get in LCS! Sucks la! Gosh! So, I just decided to bring my lunchbox! =)
The classroom gets freaking hot when it comes to noon! Air-cond is working but due to the heat which so freaking hot outside cause the hotness, outside was so glaring and there's not even 1 curtain or something to block the brightness! Sucks la!! Haihs~

Why izzit Taylor's have to open the campus in this year!? Why izzit so fast and cause so many problems!? haihs...SAD CASE LA!!!

The weirdess yet interesting lecturer

2010-04-21T22:01:00.002+08:00

Yesterday, I've met the most freaking hyperactive lecturer, Ms Suzanne! She gonna teaches us marketing in this term and also law! To our surprised, she was a LAWYER!! *dun play play ler* Okay, the way she speaks really got the strong British(?) accent since she's a KIWI! Yeaps, Kiwi from New Zealand!

The 1st impression of her to me was she's interesting! She's kinda open-minded and what makes me think of that!?
She dressed up real good with a black dress..came in class full with energetic! Is too full of energetic and we got no idea which eyes kept open freaking big till the class ended! Taking attendance was like having a joke on name? The class, of course, started to laugh around~ followed by asking to write name on A4 paper and too foods that we like or represent ourselves! As for me, I being called up with the "carrot Jessie" I got a big "swt"! = =||| And luckily I wrote a short 1 which some of my classmates wrote something long like "bak kut teh xxx" "seafood tomyam xxx" XD XD

Okay, let's skip! To the real main point!

Here goes something really interesting! Her name written in timetable as Ms Lee Soo Sian...but but! She asked us to call her Ms SUZANNE instead of SOO SIAN = =||| Okay...she said this "whenever I heard anyone of you call me Ms Lee SOO SIAN!! I'll give you *HEEHYAAA* a KARATE KICK!" and guess what!? She did that kick in front of the class with the black dress on! = =||| erm...not facing the class of sure! But is like OMG!! She could even did that with no harm!

SALUTE HER LA!!! XD

Class gonna be interesting as day goes by! =)

Back to College

2010-04-20T23:23:00.003+08:00

Yeaps!

I'm back to
C.O.L.L.E.G.E!

Study
Assignments
Projects
Assessments!

WOOTS!!! ~.~

I'm coming for the challenge! =D

Friend's Day in PC Fair

2010-04-20T22:07:00.002+08:00

Last Friday, went PC Fair with dear in the noon around 12++pm ~ and I made a big big mistake that I had to stuck in the jam and reached KLCC around 2pm *swt*

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Let's straight to PC Fair. PC Fair aint just selling anything related to computer but cameras gadgets too...Sometimes I really couldnt understand why did they sell those in PC Fair? So basically PC Fair sold stuffs from notebook, printer, cameras up to those small little stuffs like pendrive, card reader and etc...blah blah blah~ walked around from up to down...as KLCC hall damn freaking big! My leg even got tired of walking *pheww* Anyway, energetic still there! haha...

Owh~ yea! That day actually I was freaking excited to meet with Liling, my best buddy since primary =) For quite a long time didnt meet her even she's just studying in TOA and there's a chance on that day! Take granted! haha...So, searching while walking! Get even much more excited when I saw her! Oh God! Miss her la...but she was busying =( When there's Liling, there's Lok Wei! hehe...Yea~ I did meet with her too =) Happy to meet them back again since we had graduated from standard 6...
After I took a move, I kept walking, calls and messages from Mei2 non stop ringing cause we planned to meet up ~ So, I stopped by one of the booth and waited for her by telling her the location! Ariff and Wei Kien suddenly appeared in front of me! *ishh* I got surprised weh! haha...Then, met up with Mei2 and Hui Ping! haha...that two girls, NS-mate! =) Hui Ping, so called dai ka jie...cz she do look like a big sister among us! XD And she's the one who did something really "special" .... after the days we graduated from NS, she sent me the assorted Tiger biscuits! LOL! My family & I was damn shocked to see that! XD

After dismissed, accompanied dear to buy a speaker and way back home ~

My Thursday

2010-04-18T11:43:00.003+08:00

That Thursday, I went driving all by my own from north to south, east to west! Woots!

11.30am
Palace of the Golden Horses (aka PGH) to take my internship testimonial and allowance

12pm
Taylor's Lakeside to get the car sticker since college gonna start by tomorrow...On that day, I was surprised to see Jezri, Elyza, Wei Wern and others at student central! hahaha....Damn shocked! Was wondering what the hell were they doing there and classes haven't start yet ~ XD The moment I stepped out from student central, saw Vick! LOL!!

2.30pm
Sg Wang shopping for bags! Yeaps...this brought me crazy! I was hunting for bags for a week from Sunway Pyramid, iOi, The Mines, but got none! So, I decided to go on own to Sg Wang! I got a target what to get, walking all around the whole building from ground floor to top floor, from top went down again just for looking a bag = =||| Sometimes, I wondered! Why izit so difficult to look for a thing when you want it so eagerly! Conversely, when you dont get things so interested it will appear everywhere! haihs...susah ni!!
Get interested with some of them but undecided, so~~~

4pm
Time Square for next destination! LOL!! Duh, is crazy!
Walked over Times Square, as usual, so called carnival at one of the floor would always held! Bags! Im crazy! Started to search all around the stalls for a better 1...but nothing in my list! Yea, I saw one but UNDECIDED!! So go hunting in and out the shops, floor to floor...I found~! I dont even know should I buy that or not cz is a waterproof material! The design was what I wanted, simple yet easy! More than 20 minutes in that shop, finally, I decided to buy it with the price rm31! Then I went down again to get that bag which I undecided! And I bought that with price rm25! After "accidentally" bought both bags~ I questioned myself "WTF I BUY 2 BAGS!!??" = =|||
After I got what I want, walked back to Sg Wang again and met a annoying guy who wasted my time on talking rubbish saying that I've won something! BASTARD YOU....MAKE A MOVE AWAY FROM MY WAY LA!! Walked back to Sg Wang, bought a new shade since the old one broken =( Cost me again rm25!

Total I spent for that day!
Bags - 56rm
Parking - 6rm
Shade - 25rm
Soy Bean - 1.50rm (my lunch = =||| )
Wrapping Paper - 1.50rm

HOLY SHYT!!! I'VE SPEND 90 BUCKS!!!

An undecided person would buy things more than 1 is a..

FAILURE!!

Is Faithful

2010-04-15T21:12:00.003+08:00

是缘？
是巧合？

说不上的话语
一种感觉
我
比任何人跟你
来得投缘

喜欢你呵护
喜欢你给我借双耳朵
喜欢你哈拉

数不清的喜欢

第一眼
认定了你！
一辈子的 “损友”

感觉
给予的力量
老天的安排
让我们相遇

当兵的日子
有你陪伴
毕业后各自寻找梦想
联络少了

第一次的巧合
Taylor's hall 的门口
打开那扇门
你出现在我眼前

第二次的巧合
Aeon Bukit Tinggi
对！就在上escalator的当下
Padini的店前
你就站在我面前了

想要真正的聚会
计划好了
但
我却放飞机了
想要遇见难
巧合遇见却容易

再来
那天
通话直到午夜3点
无话不谈
从爱情，朋友，工作，修学
女生
当然化妆不能少
跟你聊天觉得是种释放
内心已久的话都可以说出来了

短暂的一夜
老天再次让我们相遇
第三次的巧合
在这么大的Sunway Pyramid里
你
突然的拥抱
让我感动了
眼泪在心里打滚着

怀念过去
时间
也许容许
我们再次见面

我
期待着
与你相遇的一天 - 明天 | 周末！

14日 - 情人节

2010-04-15T00:35:00.003+08:00

2月14日
西方情人节

元宵
东方情人节

3月14日
白色情人节

但
4月14日
黑色情人节
何谓？
黑色感觉阴沉，恶魔
哪来甜蜜，幸福感呢？

解答：其实黑色情人节是为单身贵族准备的！（土生土长的韩国节日）

难道接下来的每个14日都是情人节吗？

一年里的12个情人节　　

1月14日 Diary Day 日记情人节

2月14日 Valentine’s Day 传统情人节

3月14日 White Day 白色情人节

4月14日 Black Day 黑色情人节

5月14日 Yellow &Rose Day 玫瑰情人节

6月14日 Kiss Day 亲亲情人节

7月14日 Silver Day 银色情人节

8月14日 Green Day 绿色情人节

9月14日 Music &Photo Day 相片情人节

10月14日 Wine Day 葡萄酒情人节

11月14日 Orange & Movie Day 电影情人节

12月14日 Hug Day 拥抱情人节

每个都有各自特别的意义存在

但
属于两人的情人节
不只14日
却
是每天

Friend, is been already 1 year

2010-04-14T21:58:00.002+08:00

As titled above, Don, Ariff and I have be friends for a year! Yeaps...a year!
Time is like a flying jet plane...it seems to be just a click an eye, and there goes 1 year! The day we met in orientation, outside the mamak of LCS, together we waited KTM at Seri Setia to get back home! Yea...memories and now no longer KTM will take us home!

Because of Don I met Ariff...because of that we get along as friends =) Don, could say that my mum introduce me to him! hehe...sounds *ahem* but yea~ that's true! I remember the 1st day I saw him was at the 3rd day of orientation...At first, I was thinking like what my mum said how handsome he is, how good he is..blah and blah~~ but after that, handsome!? Nah~~ normal guy with a normal look nia...good? erm...treat him as a brother! Ariff, the guy who Don introduce to me, 1st met at mamak! And there goes the day we 3 started to take KTM back together! hahaha~~

Today, as Ariff told us, is our 1 year friendship! I was like "huh!? are you serious?!"...He even remember that! So, what we did today?

That 2 guys came to fetch me at 12.30pm, then we went to a Japanese restaurant - Ishin(click to view) where located at Old Klang Road =) Ariff has told me this since the week he was still on training! So we planned on today...place is okay where is so near to Mid Valley, enjoy our meal so much, service not bad since there wasnt fullhouse! XD A real fine-dining restaurant! As usual, dishes on table, Don started to comment alot! Kanasai dia! Ariff and I was like staring at him and asked him to comment after finish the meals! Yea, he comments ALOT!!! When our orders are on tables, I realize all of us ordered FISH!! But different types...

Don - salmon
Ariff - cod
me - mackerel!

LOL!!! That's a coincidence or just a random order? =)

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After lunch, Mid Valley is the nearest place for movie! We watched "How To Train Your Dragon" the cartoon! I was quite surprised the guys wanna watch that movie and not Clash of Titans! XD I wanna watch CLASH OF THE TITANS!! Anyhow, nice movie!

Love that cute Toothless dragon!

6pm, back home! We'll meet again on Monday guys!!

A nice day to hang out with you guys! None of any my college mates called up for outing after my training besides you guys! Yea..my tears were trying to fall but nah~ not gonna be that touch anyway! haha~~

Im greedy!!

2010-04-07T21:52:00.004+08:00

Yes! Im greedy!! Sometimes.

DSLR
Laptop/Netbook

What's next? Anymore gadget which I wish for? Those are expensive stuffs! More than 1000+ bucks!! Sometimes I just wish to get it but is the matter of time

LET'S START TO SAVE MONEY!!! $$$$$$

Weirdess dream & random talks

2010-04-06T12:51:00.005+08:00

Yes, bloogie! You have a new clothe which just change yesterday =)
Nice huh!? I just ♥ something simple yet clean
New bloggie with new look, what's for me? What's new for me? I just wish to go round the shopping mall to look for stuffs I want! ARGHH!!
Im just being too bored at home - 24hours with the computer on, clicking and surfing for nothing, Im just going too easy! Yea, regret that I didnt went looking for part-time jobs =(

Blog no longer update day by day cuz life is like boring from day till night =( Just right after the training, my holidays - nothing interesting, nothing fun! What's with me? Computer - dramas, songs, FB, Plurks, spamming = =||| Lifeless
Even a DSLR in the wishlist is a hard to get item...haihs!! Just wait. I just wish that time could fly even faster to the day of my class starts. How great to meet up with friends! Owh yea..about friends! My girlfriends - Suhui, Mei Mei & Elynn, gonna meet up with them on this coming Saturday! =D How great we get to meet up again...is been a long time we've planned to meet up but due to the busy-ness of studies and working~ Yea! End up nothing! But this time...hell ya!! We gonna meet up together!! Miss the girls!!

Something interesting? Yeaps! Get it. 3 days ago...my dream really weird! Seriously, weird! The weirdess dream I ever had in my 19 life time!
The 1st dream was on the Monday morning (so-called morning actually was late night) XD
I have no idea how could my imagination or so whatever it called came out such a quite uncomfortable scene! I dont know izit am I too superstition or whatever, maybe just for this!
Remember the day dear asked me whether could I kiss a girl with the tongue-kissing type...I said "MAYBE!" Here came across my dream! Yes, with no doubt I kissed a girl(whom a friend of mine, no name mentioned) with that "cara" la! =\ I have strictly no idea how could this just came across my dream! = =||| In that moment(dream), both of us were quite enjoying(to say so) but aint lesbo!!!!! Okay...I really got frighten when I woke up. Everything was so clear in my mind, it seemed to be just happened in a minute and disappeared! Dont ask me how does it feel, taste of tongue blah and blah, ENOUGH! hmm...anyway~ NO MORE!!! >.< Dream, something that couldn't be control and yet scary! The wedding, did not have a happy ending! And, frightened me once again! The moment I woke up I was thinking how could this kind of weird dream come across again!
The dream as I mentioned wedding...normal western-style wedding! But the groom, at least handsome also never mind! He was an Indian guy!! >.< Dream isnt a thing that we could control! I really going insane with these 2 freaking weird dream!! = =|||

So what's next? Nothing much anymore =(
Owh! Movies!! Neither training period nor after the training, I have no longer step into cinema anymore!! So many movies are on screen but none of any I've watched! Arghhh~~~ Think back, when was my last for movie? Avatar?? Maybe~ haihs!! =( Sad!!
Clash of the titans...awaiting! Beauty on duty? hah! another comedy! XD
One more! Just another Pandora's box! I freaking wanna watch but is almost gonna end in cinema! =( Comedy again ^^
hmm...recently seems to be not many movies already...haihs! =(

I think nothing to talk about anymore...continue my HK drama 秋香怒点唐伯虎 before I start to get bored!

耐心的读 · 用心的了解

2010-04-02T16:16:00.004+08:00

今天在FB 看到了一篇文章故事蛮有意思
有时觉得女孩还蛮傻里傻气的傻于被爱情蒙蔽
男生，别说20岁了性欲强就单凭这句话每个女生都可以被伤害吗？
我偶尔会想到底性与爱是一回事还是两回啊？两人相爱性就一定存在吗？*别说结了婚*
男生就可以为所欲为吗？
爱不是占有！而是想怎么去保护她，不让她受一点的伤害

请耐心的读；用心的了解

[转载 FB - 不能为她穿上 ‘嫁衣’ 请别脱她的 ‘内衣’..]

“拥抱睡觉不做爱那么这个男人是真的爱她...”
偶尔和朋友闲谈，谈到爱谈到性，
他说他在网上看到这样一句话，“拥抱睡觉不做爱”。
我说 “如果是你，你能做到吗？”，他说 “ 能”，
我，笑怎么能，真的能吗？
如果能，他就不会和别人刚恋爱就上床，刚上床就分手了，

呵呵。。。

他告诉我世界上没有爱情，爱只不过是对依恋和习惯的一种修饰因为寂寞才恋爱！
不聊了，话题结束，有些事是不适宜深聊下去的。
回到家，却还一直想着这句话，
我问妈妈“一个人在一切条件都具备的情况下，
可能和自己心爱的人‘拥抱睡觉不做爱吗？’
”妈说:"能"，我问:"有可能控制得住吗，那他还算男人吗?!"
时间突然停滞了几秒,妈妈转过头和我说 "...那才是真男人..."

想到了一篇文章。。。
和最爱的人在一起一定要做的十件事！
其中有一条就是 : 抱着她睡觉,但什么也不做！
什么是真爱?

爱不是性不是欲不是占有
如果你真的爱她,你想的不是怎么去占有她的身体,
而是会很小心翼翼的保护她,不让她受一点伤害,
哪怕是自己可能给的,也不可以！

只有出于真爱，你才能真正的设身处地的为她着想。
你才会在做每件事情前考虑到这么做会给她带来什么后果,
而不是简单的想着快感,想着占有,想着满足。

读了一篇散文，觉得有一段写的特别美：
"还记得那年暑假的一个晚上,我们坐在小镇河边的公园里

,
傻傻的聊到凌晨3点,现在想起来心里总觉得那时侯特别美好,
在那棵桃树下，雨淅沥沥的下着,我们牵着手,我的手心里全是汗水,
但我舍不得放开,我想就这样一直牵下去,雨水淋湿了你的衬衫,
不经意间我隐约看见你湿透的胸口在夜色中象树上含苞欲放的桃花一样,
那时候我真想抱紧你,深深的吻着你,但是我没敢,是我没有勇气,
但我并没有后悔,因为那些美好的情节,
那段朦胧的初恋将永远永远地印在我的心上" ... ...

看到这里你的心中是否也有涌起一丝丝悸动?
是否也想到了一些事? 是否也想起了某个人? 我相信真爱,但我只相信一次！
任何人都是这样,心底总有一个永远也忘不了的她,那些清涩的故事,那些傻傻的举动。。。
一旦那份至珍的感情结束了,人就变了,变的无所谓了,
变的世俗了,变的圆滑了,变的不再相信什么狗屁爱情了,
你还会像对待初恋女友那样,小心翼翼的保护着她的第一次吗?!

一次次的控制着自己挑战自己的自制力吗?
不会的,有那个必要吗? 甩了钱,一夜情有的是,做爱其实是件很廉价的事情,
如果你把它的实质只当一种情感的发泄,那它比你给的价钱更廉价,一分钱都不值！
如果你不爱她,大可不用考虑那么多,拍拍屁股走人呗,管她那么多,
愿意负责任,我负,不愿意负,我走人 .没有处男膜吧,呵呵。。反正我不损失什么。
女人就是衣服,随便换,天凉快的时候,我都可以不穿,有了钱有了权还怕没女人吗？
如果一个男人这样想了,是的,也许他可以拥有一切,但是---- 却永远无法拥有真爱了！
和每个人一样,也一定有一个女人住在他内心最深处,
只不过却也只能住在他自己的回忆中了,坐在一堆钱上的回忆中了 ... ...

真爱来的不容易
我们还年轻有些事情不是我们该享受的,我们也承担不起请珍惜,爱护身边的她
我们还年轻,学生时代的爱情相对于物欲横流的复杂社会是最真最纯的了，
如果你真的拥有了一份真爱，爱是寂寞撒的慌。
当你们相爱时，一定慢一点上床，别以为脱了裤子就是爱！
如果这样都是爱，那么扣上皮带也就该拜拜。
做爱容易说爱难~！每个人都有初恋，初恋结婚成功率仅为千分之三！

当下大多男人会在婚前有过性行为，然而和你发生关系的女孩子成为你的新娘了吗？
没有？！冲动的惩罚更多的来自于女孩子，怀孕、流产、痛苦、伤心......
当你拥着心爱的女孩子的时候，你有没有想过，当有一天你离开她的时候，
你还能坦然的告诉自己，我曾经是爱她的，她是完整的。我给了她完整的爱？！
当你拥着初恋心爱的女孩儿的时候，望着眼前美丽的胴体，你有没有想过，
当有一天你结婚的时候，你心爱的女孩子告诉你，曾经她有过... ...
你会坦然的面对她，告诉她，没关系，你依然是我今生最美的新娘？！

而当你想起曾经的你的她的时候，你是那么爱她，而你没能给她穿上嫁衣，
你却得到了女孩儿最珍贵的东西，你能没有一丝愧疚吗？
如果你真心爱着她，请不要轻易解开你心爱女孩儿的衣服，
如果你真心爱着她，请不要轻易忘了你曾经的承诺！
如果你真心爱着她，请给她安全的臂弯，给她依靠！
如果你真心爱着她，请善待你们的每一天，让她幸福，让你们开心。

如果有一天，你将独自迎来日出和日落；
如果有一天，你的视线里再也找不到曾经的她的影子。
你却依然可以在你的天空里祝福远方的她过得幸福！
因为，你给了她完整的爱！！！！！

有句话：如果你不能给她穿上嫁衣，请停下脱她衣服的手 ...

Canon EOS 550D releases!!

2010-03-30T00:23:00.002+08:00

GOSH!!! Here comes the 550D!! Is already releases in Malaysia! But could I really get that?

EXPENSIVE WEH!!!!! 3K++

But why is 500D expensive than 550D leh??

What's the reason behind?
The specs?

[转载-FB] 她不是野蛮～不讲道理的女孩！

2010-03-29T23:20:00.001+08:00

～因为她爱你～

* 她总是问 : 你在哪 ? 你干什么呢 ?
- 她很关心你 , 只是想跟你说说话 ; 你不给她发信息 , 她很矛盾 , 怕你在忙 , 但又忍不住想你 . 换了别人 , 爱干嘛就干嘛 , 她根本不会去关心 . 所以请你一有时间就问候她一下 , 让她放心 , 让她知道你心里有她 . 她总是主动联系你 , 她会觉得她贱

* 她说 : 天冷了 , 记得多穿衣服 ~
- 不要嫌她烦 , 不要说她像你妈 , 你妈妈有时可能都比不上她对你的关心 . 换了别人 , 冻死也不关她的事 ! 她知道你不傻 , 她只想让你知道她心里有你

* 她说 : 我不高兴了
- 不要怪她无理取闹 , 她不是真的不开心 , 只是想你了 , 只是想要你几句安慰的话 : 乖 ~ 别闹了 ~

* 她总说自己又胖了或者长得不够漂亮
- 不要觉得她嫉妒别人 , 她只是怕在你眼中不够完美

* 她总说你看谁谁谁他们怎么怎么样
- 不要说她贪慕虚荣 , 总羡慕别人 , 她只是想让你知道怎样做能使她高兴

* 她说你看谁多有钱 , 长得多帅
- 你不用生气 , 在她眼里 , 你是最好的 , 她只是想让你为了她努力奋斗

* 她不分场合的抱你 , 吻你
- 她不是炫耀什么 , 只是想让别人知道你俩有多好

* 她总说她会帮你 , 让你有事找她
- 其实她知道她帮不了你什么 , 她只想让你知道你还有她 , 她永远在你身边陪你

* 不论是过马路还是走在哪 , 她用手死死拽住你的胳臂
- 不要说她粘人 , 她只是告诉你她信任你

* 她总是走在你的左边
- 不要说她多事 , 她只是想离你的心更近一些

* 她看到你跟别的女生亲近一些就会生气
- 别说她小气 , 不信任你 , 她其实是在吃醋 , 这表示她十分在乎你

* 她爱忧伤 , 爱掉泪
- 别怪她多愁善感 , 她只是缺乏安全感 , 你要知道 , 她很少会为别人流泪

* 在买东西时她总征求你的意见
- 别说她没主见 , 依赖你 , 她只是尊重你 , 凡事以你为先

* 出去吃饭 , 她吃得很少说吃不了 , 让你替她吃
- 别说她挑食或者浪费 , 她只是怕你吃不饱

* 买东西她总买便宜的
- 别说她小气 , 她只是想为你省钱

* 给你买东西 , 总买贵的
- 你可能不需要 , 不喜欢 , 但别怪她浪费 , 她只是想告诉你她可要把最好的留给你

* 跟你在一起总爱玩失踪
- 别说她淘气 , 吓唬你 , 她只是爱看你急着找她的样子 , 证明一下她对你来说是重要的

* 她总假装生气转身离开
- 记住 , 她不是真地想走 , 离开时想要被挽留

* 她会突然冷淡你 , 或向你撒娇
- 别怪她孩子气 , 她只是想让你哄哄她

永远不会发脾气的女人就如同一杯白开水 -- 解渴 , 却无味

* 你迟到 , 她向你发脾气
- 是因为她紧张你 , 她怕你出了什么意外

* 你抽烟 , 她向你发脾气
- 是因为她担心你的身体健康

* 你喝酒 , 她向你发脾气
- 是因为她担心你酒醉后没有人照顾 , 更怕你在酒吧会出什么事 , 留下她一个人

* 你身上被发现有别的女人香 , 她向你发脾气
- 是因为她在乎你 , 你是她的所有 , 她不想跟别人分亨你

* 你臭袜子乱扔 , 她向你发脾气
- 是因为她关心你 , 她怕有一天你会被自己的臭袜子淹没 , 所以她要先把你训练好

* 你忘记她的生日 , 她向你发脾气
- 是因为她对你有所期待 , 她并不会要求一个陌生人记住她的生日

~ 女人是最讲理的动物 , 她的脾气往往导因于各式各样的理由
~ 女人也是最不讲理的动物 , 她的理由经常令人无法理解

女人可以为了一件小得不能再小的事 , 发一场大得不能再大的脾气 , 因为女人对身边的男人有所要求 , 有所期望 , 所以常常会失望 ; 失落 .
因此 , 女人容易对男人发脾气

身边有个会向你发脾气的女人 , 其实是一件多么幸福的事 !
而身边有一个会让自己发脾气的男人 , 对女人是最大的折磨 , 也是莫大的幸福 !

假如有一天 , 她不在为你生气 ..
留下的只有漆黑的房间 , 慌乱的心跳 , 述说着心灵深处的痛楚 ,
那寂寞的思念 , 那暗淡的惆怅 , 还有那幸福的幻觉 , 独自呓语 !

当有一天 , 女人不在对男人发脾气的时候 , 那么一切就即将结束了 !

All about cam again =D

2010-03-29T19:23:00.005+08:00

3 weeks more I officially gonna be a student =D
How great for that studies are awaiting for me ... feel excited! But somehow there isn't something gonna be relax of...Term 4, my 2nd year in the course, syllabus gonna be so much different from the previous terms ... It wont be anymore easy and much more challenging ahead! Is like from the basic to advance, form 3 to form 4...changes are there! Even campus also change to a new environment...say Bye to LCS! =( haihs...what I gonna expect more?
Owh yea...another point to headache! Why the hack Taylor's are so mengacaukan people! 3months for Term 4 and after that back to intern again! Really dont understand la! Shiok shiok balik college just for while then have to leave again!! >.< relaxing =D

In my wishlist, a DSLR camera is exist! But problems always struck my mind
If family use, that isnt a good cam to have (who willing to bring that around whenever comes to vacation)
Mummy is convincing me to get a compact ones but I just cant resist the passion of DSLR!! So I was thinking compact, DSLR - why dont I get a Semi one? Im looking forward to Lumix FZ35 =) when really have to say Bye to SLR! =( Lumix still bulky but unlike DSLR...at least is much more easier to use for family...isnt it? haihs...I just wish to get a DSLR!! >.<

*Small is good but I like something bulky* =P

I wish my new "pet" could "born"

Panasonic Lumix FZ35!! RM1400++

Canon EOS 1000D - RM1999

Crazy of Camera!

2010-03-21T01:34:00.002+08:00

Oh HOLY SHYT!!! Im so into photography in a sudden! Crazy SIAL!!!! = =|||
Digital camera aint my toy
Deciding on having a semi...but DSLR is just too AWE to have!! >.<
What should I get now!!??

Nikon p90 or Lumix FZ35 - for semi (+/- 1400)
EOS 1000D or Nikon D60 - for DSLR (+/- 2000)

Crazy dude!!!! All over rm1000++!! Why my interest always in high expectation 1!!?? My parents surely gonna kill me over.... =P

Nikon D60 (recommended by Wei Kein & Yen Zheng)

EOS 1000D (recommended by salesman)

Lumix FZ35

Nikon P90

借酒“入眠”

2010-03-19T21:45:00.002+08:00

害怕
心烦
担心
懊恼

一杯又一杯的红酒
麻醉自己
一幕幕的事故忘记

借酒消愁
为有的方法
让我好好的入眠

人心就是那么的邪恶自私

［转载］Facebook 这才是男朋友，你合格吗?

2010-03-15T21:56:00.003+08:00

一 · 每天睡觉之前一定要给她打一个电话，不管你有多晚，因为她一直在等你，只是她嘴上说不管。

二 · 就算你再忙，你也不能一连好几天不给她短信或电话，或者对她忽冷忽热，因为这样会让她很恐慌，是不是自己又做错了什么。任何时候不要让她找不到你，因为这样她会一直很不安心。

三 · 就算她跟你无理取闹你也要原谅她，因为她那是在测试你在乎她的程度。因为她那是缺乏安全感

四 · 你要经常去她的个人主页，即使什么也不留下，但是她看到你来过的记录也会很开心。

五 · 你问她想不想你时，如果她说不想，你一定要很开心，因为她的不想就是想。

六 · 和她发短信时，字数一定要比她的多，这样她会觉得你是在乎她的。

七 · 对她对你已经说过一万遍的关心，不要不耐烦的说知道了知道了，要很感动的说谢谢，因为那真的都是她出自内心的关心。

八 · 当她关心你时，不要说出：原来你也会关心我这样的话。这样会很伤她心，因为这对于她来说是一种很大的否定。

九 · 当你和她打电话时，你一定要她先挂你的电话，即使她说了一百遍要你先挂。

十 · 千万要记得她都是害羞的，不要什么都让她主动。

十一 · 即使最后你们还是不能走到一起，记得，一定要跟她说清楚，分手一定要让她说出，因为她是为你折翅的天使。

十二 · 分手后，千万不要再对她说出以后还是朋友这样的话，因为这样她会觉得自己很悲哀。

男朋友就是每天不厌其烦的陪你吃饭、送你上下班的那个人；

男朋友就是虽然身上没什么钱，也会请你吃饭的那个人；

男朋友就是早晨你醒来时第一个想到的那个人；

男朋友就是能跟你打电话聊到半夜都舍不得挂的那个人；

男朋友就是在你最艰难的时候陪伴在你身边的那个人；

男朋友就是为了不让你担心，无论出了什么事都要自己默默承担的那个人；

男朋友就是手机里总是存满你给他发的短信，直到信箱满了都舍不得删掉的那个人;

男朋友就是无论你是不是漂亮都会夸赞你漂亮的那个人；

男朋友就是常察看你的手机纪录，确信跟你常联系的都是你的女性朋友才放心的那个人；

男朋友就是在你任性、耍小脾气时，也会忍住脾气不会冲你发火的那个人；

男朋友就是看到你流泪时，为你擦去泪水给你一个温暖拥抱的那个人；

男朋友就是就算你犯了错误，也舍不得骂你的那个人；

男朋友就是可以在车站等你很久也不会介意的那个人；

男朋友就是明明最不喜欢逛街，还能陪你一家一家的逛到你觉得满意为止的那个人；

男朋友就是有着宽厚的肩膀可以让你随时依靠的那个人；

男朋友就是吃饭时放慢速度等你的那个人；

男朋友就是总是让你走在马路内侧的那个人；

男朋友就是过马路时会紧紧拉住你的手的人；

男朋友就是就算情人节也不会买花给你，让你对他又爱又气的那个人；

男朋友就是深夜为你开着手机的那个人；

男朋友就是当你读到这篇文章时立刻会想到的那个人

如此，这般？

The Crazy Gohtong Trip

2010-03-15T14:38:00.009+08:00

话说当晚（星期五），耀给了通电话临时问是否要跟他们（康，耀，Ah Yan, Alvin, Nic)上Gohtong...想说刚过完这艰辛的三个月不如来个休闲之旅 ^^ 就答应啰！

Day 1
9点左右康到我家载了我之后跟Alvin meet在康家，跟着4个大男生吃了早餐后出发
至于Yan，她老早已跟她老姐上了！
在路途，塞车的我也累累的就小睡了 12点多啦才抵达我们的目的地 - Gohtong Jaya 到 Alvin's 阿姨的度假公寓
放下行李打开了门窗凉凉的风把屋子的空间都填满了一个字 - 赞！康和耀两个男生打点好晚上的火锅大餐后到楼下的Strawberry Farm走走~ In the mean time, 我们也在等Yan...踏入草莓园的那一刻香香的草莓味扑鼻而来！是香的啰！很有一股冲动想把整个farm的草莓给采下来吃呢！那些草莓并不大粒可是每一粒都很鲜红，好想吃啊！他们也有Self-plucking...可是贵的啰！100gm=RM8！= =···· 绕了花园，蘑菇园就这样过了一个小时了。。之后跟Yan meet, 一起再回去住宿休息
在那段时间（两点左右）毫无头绪该做什么想睡可是又不想就这样白白浪费时间就干脆的看大日子啰~ 这群人啊看没两下 Nic 就提议要不要吃点东西。。想也不想我们就到附近的mamak喝茶啰！Mamak嘛~ 最经济了！茶也喝完了当我们要准备下一站到云顶出发时看见天色暗暗的取消了回到住宿楼下的arcade centre玩snooker...时间一分一秒地过开始感觉沉闷的时候突然大家一致的说上云顶吧！4点左右云顶，我们来啦！
说rm10有的找，谁知刚刚好rm10 靠！算了出来玩就是该花的时候了上去感受冷飕飕的风迎面吹来爽啊！！六人行 ~ 到处闯的几乎绕完云顶了~

第一个地点 - Hotel Theme Park 后面的花园
起初康带我们走的怎知迷路了耀又说他知道结果就是所谓我说的他带的跟我们想去的是两个地方就这样我们走到First World Hotel那~ 唉。。算了回头吧！非常突然的 convention 那里有 megasale!! 真的MEGA啰！！我们原本没有要进去的念头就康的一句 “进去看看” 结果我们两个女的看了爱不释手了因为真的很便宜！他妈的又不见得山下的megasale也酱便宜！靠咧~~ 名牌也70% 算得来也有rm50找！可是就因为原本没有花钱的胜算啊，但一见mickey T 让我 “手痒痒” 的两件才rm50！刚巧Yan也要买的两个女生还犹豫了蛮久结果还是买了~ 哈！有点开心的说 =D
Then then....寻寻觅觅的终于找到我们“传说”中的花园啦！在那里疯疯癫癫的狂拍照走到那里拍到哪~ 回家之前一直坚持的要吃ice cream，到McD啰！冷冷的天气吃冰淇淋是过瘾的！可是天不作美打算下山了结果下雨了还担心说会不会在这里过夜啦！？
还好的雨停了顺利下山！回到住宿大约9点多了终于可以准备大吃火锅大餐啰！！冷冷的天气吃火锅 - 赞！而且还不会流汗咧~~ 哈哈！
疯疯癫癫的晚上 4点早上才入眠
*在这屋檐下给我一种宿舍的感觉 - 棒！*

Day 2
模模糊糊的早上 10点半才肯从棉被里转出来~ 准备早餐
这早餐棒极了就是昨晚吃剩的火锅料再次与面一起吃！哈哈~ 又能省下一餐到外面吃了！

地点2 - 蓬莱仙境
这次的旅程有够疯狂了啦！在没有事情做得当下耀就问要否到山上的庙里走走
既然都到了就干脆的上去也无妨问题是 Alvin的车必须载6个人！但没办法之下就只能这样了
6人在一辆车而且山路特别斜每个人还有点害怕会否突然车发生状况呢一路往上“爬啊爬”的车子终于成功把我们载到目的地啦！Phewww....车子也辛苦啰！仙境就是仙境雾也特别多！狂拍照就是我们的专长！哈哈~~
都说疯狂啦回家之前爬上了九层塔我靠它背咧！一层又一层的爬气也喘不过来了第九层终于！啊~~~~~~ 我的妈呀！累得要死。。上气不接下气地。。不停的喘~~ 感受了凉凉的风看不见白白雾里的风景再次他妈的！从九楼走下底楼。。。当时就想用滚的或许比较快！
是时候下山时又出状况啦！不懂怎么下山了靠GPS的带领我们上山而且出乎所料又到云顶了~ 因为迷路结果上了云顶绕了一圈才找到出路！唉~悲哀！
大概4点多。。收拾好东西到隔壁的strawberry farm买草莓冰淇淋后回家啰！
草莓冰淇淋 - 好吃！最爱了！♥♥♥

Last but not least...

Our "Shoe" Prints

六人行之疯狂旅 aka 疯狂派！

我们的疯狂之旅就这样的结束了~ 当然期待下一个旅程啰!
*more pictures on FB*

轻松 · 悠闲

2010-03-12T20:08:00.003+08:00

三个月的实习终于在今天告段落了时间说快并不快因为我已痴痴的等待这天的来临已久了
自从实习开始的那天起我都没有睡得饱饱的每天都早起迟睡；早出晚归想到可怕了黑眼圈慢慢变得显眼使别人都叫我当中国的国宝了哈哈身心都已疲惫了每天拖着疲惫的身子工作，回家！
生活真的沉闷了

不过现在就不一样啦！我终于熬过这艰辛的三个月还我自由啦！是时候补充睡眠啰真难得我有这机会啦！哈哈期待已久啰~ 打回原形了足足有一个月的时间给我玩乐之后又是时候上课啦！想到真有点兴奋了！修学比工作还来得十倍的好呢。。
接下来的一个月吃喝玩乐通通涌着而来啦！看戏，逛街shopping是不容错过的！可是就只有说而已却没真正行动过唉~~ 听了有点悲啊！

近来因为一直不停的工作双手都变得干干的双脚更不用说试想每天穿这高跟鞋脚痛得快断开两节了啦！！ *夸张* 肌肤都该保养啰~~ 每天酱的生活恐怕10片面膜都不够服； 10支精华液都不够用啦！唉~~ 每天累累的好想睡哦！现在每天就只有 “睡” 一字在脑海里旋转！好好的睡一觉明天苏醒过来又是新一天的生活开始啦！^^

好懒在打下去了因为现在的我就处于睡眠状态了~~~~~ (-o-) zzzzzz

*哦！还有还有给予点补充
刚满5个月的我们哈哈！
12号，我们的情人节
却分隔两地
但一直铭记三个字
我·爱·你*

Randomness

2010-02-28T22:40:00.005+08:00

How random will it be? Yes...a really random post! Dont know what to write about
Is the end of February...CNY, Valentines, Birthdays...everything just passed around like that..hmm~~ Time goes flying round and round...c'mon! Im free after 2 weeks!!

During this training period, I might just use the words "NOT FREE" as excuse for this 10 weeks time...Im seriously gonna "die" of tiredness! Training for 10 weeks which 5 weeks in kitchen and the other 5 in f&b...Nothing much to talk about actually even there is c'z Im quite lazy to type out every single details! That will be a freaking long story to go...Summarize also lazy ler =D

I really get bored sometimes when there's nothing to do and yet have to wait the time to tick tock...that isnt a great time! But there were some functions coming out which might be pretty good c'z I gotta experience different situation! Quite fun when comes to handle functions =D That's just for kitchen while f&b might be suffereing with the staffs problematic! Crazy dude!! Split shift was freaking bored to have and tiring! I have almost 2 hours ++ break to 6pm for the next shift to start...What I only do in between was hanging out at the locker, take my sweet time to rest, or maybe sometimes go back home have a bath and back to work again at 5pm ^^
But somehow I still dislike split shift!

Now I know how tired to be in this line...1 week 6 days working =(
How sad to see people go holiday on weekends while I have to stay back for work
How sad that I cant have the time with family
How sad that I have a real big eye bags after this training
How sad that I have to sacrifice my time for outing and online

HAIHS!!!!!!
THAT'S HOW HOTEL LINE GOES AROUND!!

*I've updated my blog elynn, dont say Im a lazy bum! =P*

疑心，得不到真正的感情

2010-02-02T22:43:00.002+08:00

为什么那么的突然？
为什么你要我对你再次起疑心？
昨天的每个问题真的让我难以作答

哪天如果真的离开了，我说过的我会让你离开
我会潇洒的因为不想让你看到我的心在滴泪
挽回，再也没有用
当你选择离开的时候，心已不属于我了
就算我再怎么得到你也只是个人而不是心！
当然我也清楚勉强的爱情是没有结果的
再怎么把不属于自己的东西牵连在一起也是不开心
我会恨你但更怨恨自己不会当你心目中的女友
你说过毕业后就会去新加坡
一个远距离的爱情
我说不害怕是谎言
害怕哪天我收到封简讯或接到电话告诉我说你已变心了
因为距离仿佛有道围墙把我们隔离了

不用说以后现在也一样
你上课我在外实习
两人也许一两星期才见一次面
时间也是个恶魔！
或许说我自己该有个心理准备面对自己的感情
一天又一天的过去
我的心当然一天比一天还要挣扎
就算在实习我可嬉皮笑脸
跟你通话偶尔会让你发脾气
说真的
每当你发脾气真的忍受不了了或许你应该会选择离开不是吗？
我脆弱容易掉泪为什么？
因为你让我真的放下真诚的心来对待这感情
让我滴下了多少的泪水
让我知道两人相处的意义
让我感觉到原来被关心是多么的幸福
但我却没珍惜过！
因为我不相信自己！

这些都来得太突然了
你要我坚强
说要到新加坡去
要我自己觉悟你离开我那天的心情
一切的一切似乎在暗示什么的
你觉得自己没信心要在面对了吗？
还是你真的要有天对我说离开了？

真的让我心乱如麻，心惊胆跳
这些都并不好玩！
难道你就要我对你有个疑心吗？
永远就留住这疑心的跟你在一起
这对自己没信心有什么差别嘛！？！

寻找人生的转角处

2010-02-02T22:19:00.002+08:00

童话故事里的世界永远是最完美但却是虚假的
真正的世界里永远是最残酷的
借口是自己一字一句联想的
为自己找借口的永远无法抬起头面对一切
我，就是个例子吧！
永远只会为自己找一堆的理由来维护（？）自己所做的说的一切都是对的！
但实际上可说我还未看到人生的转角处
是这样吗？
我还没清楚地看到她人的真面目就判了她死刑
原因：在我第一眼的印象中，她已被我“毁灭”了！对员工态度恶劣！ captain就很了不起吗？！ captain就可以随便说人 “蠢” 吗？！
但我还没看到实际的她将如何对待我这做事迟钝即缓慢的人啊！？
因为做久了感到腻了就可以这样吗？脾气暴躁，态度恶劣，拿员工来发泄哦？

“与其为自己找一大堆的借口，不如将心比心面对”
真的是这样吗？
心比心有会改变个人的看法吗？

The 1st day of February

2010-02-01T22:53:00.004+08:00

Wow wow...1st day of February!! Finally the day has come...I waited for January to pass and it seemed to take a long time!! Phew....

Today today, I just feel so good that I finally can get to go shopping for my CNY stuffs!! Owh..Haleluya!! That's pretty good!! Noon, followed mummy to Mid Valley to hunt for new clothes! 1st shop I'll surely go for it was PDI! Yes...PDI will always be my 1st choice! Why? Cause that's always the place for my last minute grab...T-shirts for sure...No doubts, I like wearing T-shirts! Comfortable, soft material,....That's the good thing of wearing it!! =D
Save time..let's list down!

PDI - 2 printed tee
Padini Authentics - 2 blouse
Romp - 1 shorts
Treats - 1 long jeans (which gonna be sharing with mummy)

Owh ya...before that I also bought 2 shirts from Padini Concept Store which also from PDI! LOL!! 1 printed tee and 1 sleeveless black! I just love shopping went I feel like spending! Wooo.... *expenses on mummy* BLEK!!

Buy buy buy...shop shop shop...One more thing! I love shopping in weekdays c'z not many people!! No rush! No crowds! That's marvelous!!
Now now, I just wait for time again for the next shopping trip to hunt for sandals and bag! hahaha!!!

Evening, went out with dear to Summit USJ for our so called great dinner in McD! *swt* After that, teman him to look out for shoes which finally got Converse canvas shoes but the moment we wanted to walk off from the shop he saw something much more greater! Nike which also cost the same price as Converse and looked nicer but it was too late! muahahaha~~
Dear, accept it la! =D

That's all for the day...

Let's get ready for tomorrow the last week of training in kitchen...

GAMBATEH JESSIE!!!!

发泄完毕！

2010-01-25T15:42:00.004+08:00

只是纯粹想blogging...因为无聊还是无聊

时间，嘀嗒嘀嗒的，每天就这样看着时间流逝等着上班下班休息，睡眠？渐渐的少了黑眼圈都明显的露出来了做工真的那么难吗？现在知道钱难赚了吧！从第一天后我回家的时间再也看不到白天只有黑暗跟家人相处的时间也不过只有那短短的时间而已-- 半小时？还是就连说话的时间也不到半句？下午做工晚上11点才回家到家，冲凉刷个牙就睡觉了因为什么？

一个字

累！

难道累也是个错？现在是该付出还是牺牲？还是因为每次的累我都该被责骂后才甘愿啊？！睡眠，我已好久没有了！顶多每天就算是有那8小时！还是觉得不够 8小时后继续上班驾车打瞌睡，做工还有点头痛！我撑！
前天回到家我快跨了！我已经没力啦妈的隔天还要上班！我讨厌这种生活！可是我能怎样！？想说可以有个人给我诉苦结果呢！？昨天晚上睡得迷迷糊糊一通电话来结果呢？就因为我说累！被你当成是个借口，我还能说什么。。因为我的累我没付出什么看似我没用就连现在觉得睡觉也是个错！说我没珍惜就当我对爱情两字不解~ 从来不解！我不了解什么是爱！我不懂得要怎么建立一个所谓好的感情！！爱情的含义是什么？意义何在？牺牲吗？该付出多少？

每天对着一堆陌生人有好听的也有不好听的我都不能吭声就一直憋在心里什么也不能说不能做！难道要我每天抱着枕头埋头哭泣？！哭了又能怎样！？！？哭了能解决问题吗？哭了他人会同情我吗？！这就是我要面对的社交圈子吗？！每天都要看别人脸色来工作，就短短的3个星期我也不能熬他人会说：好啦！你休息吧！不会嘛！谁会理啊！反而还会被瞧不起！
昨天原本想说去chinese kitchen 拿一包crabstick 就去问那里的师傅~ 反而被酸说：你在叫我啊？你学校老师没教你看人要叫人的吗？没有吗？酱没礼貌的啊~~ 你家人没教你的啊？！
妈的！我已经叫了两次是你没听到还要来教训我啊！！他妈的！跟你拿个东西还要看你脸色！
二话不说拿了crabstick 硬着头皮走出厨房！我已经咬牙忍了~ 我承认我不够坚强眼泪容易流但还是收拾好心情继续工作！

家人，想想我已经有段时间没跟他们坐在一起吃晚餐了。。昨天刚巧早下班才有那机会！现在每天回到家至少有跟妈咪讲讲工作发生的事之类的~

难道选择这条路就是种牺牲吗？