离开

突然，累得辛苦

哭过的累。

对家人的期待，家的快乐，一瞬间消失了。

绝望。失落。真的累。

好想每天的离开。躲避。

寻找自己的私生活，刺激感。

现在明白 一根烟 是为了解开烦恼。

累了

Imma so not in mood. Day to bored.

Assignments are still pending in com. Lazy. Just feel like throwing everything into the sea. Let the sea wave washed away.

累了。辛苦了。

一场不一样的恋爱，无奈的累。

需要安慰。

偶尔回想，我们共创了多少的回忆？很无助。

家人的束缚，给了个挑战。

但 又有谁知道 这场游戏会停止呢？

等待？期待？

又有谁会明白那心情？

累了。哭了。要坚持。

真的想过离开一个属于我的家。一个人生活会是怎样？

未遇到的挫折，怎么懂得坚持呢？

加油吧！只能靠自己了！

Up-to-date October

7th October

His special day, his birthday.

Happy birthday, darling.

You're not alone to celebrate.

The homemade cupcakes *cacated*

The handmade card. Lovely.

The after so long swimming session! Finally, last Wednesday! woohoo. Super awesome.

Just gulped off a McD chicken burger after swimming. Satisfied!

Yesterday..the beauty of sky really caught my eyes. Eventually took a picture.

Assignment, as usual, still pending. Sigh. Im so lazy and sick of THEM! *bing bang!*

Mind rest. Peace.

8月，再见！

8月将接近尾声了。

马来西亚独立54周年。气氛渐渐消失-花火，游行，倒数。我也忘了日历上的8月31日。

8月，过得不怎么样。闷。跟男友闹下不合；分分合合，合合分分。表面上的情趣，但 会累的说。意图想说 “算了，放弃吧！” 但 还是抵抗不了自己对他的心。8月16日收到了电话的黑色华丽新衣。感谢宝贝！

那天被问到 “你们应该还记得你们的第一次吧？第一次的约会？第一场戏？。。。” 只有，沉默。

画面模糊，为什么？不在乎？男友说 “每个人有不同的恋爱方式” 有这么一回事吗？想了，真的很无奈。想不通。

某星期的星期四，到jogoya开餐！那也是我的最后一次了！食物没什么特别，贵！却引来人潮。开心的，刚巧遇到了小学最要好的朋友。天哪！真是个最妙的一天！赞！

闷了。累了。懒了。不写了。Bye!

Zapalang.

What's up-to-date?? I have no idea what to update about.

Just got my class started...having a nice free day on every Monday and Wednesday. Degree can be fun though. Too bad, most of the classes really bored because of the lecturers. And, now is the fasting month. Everyday gonna caught in jam if just a minute late to get out from uni in the evening.

Arrgghh...!!!! Feeling lifeless. Like what boyfriend said. But, Im lazy to drive out when I have free time. Friends? They ain't free for me to call out. Hey ya! Wonder...what changes will be when turn to be 21? Same life? Same shytty things to go around? What's the future ahead? So blank.

I just got a new phone recenty. Samsung Galaxy S2. It began with my boyfriend asking to look thru this smartphone. Got excited. Wanted to get it everywhere in any Maxis Centre but always get a shyt answer! But, lcukily the 2nd last day of promo I got it! =D Happily using it. I have no idea why is this phone giving some kind of problem already. Gosh! Auto shut down. Half screen gone in password screen. *swt* Imma looking for a new "shirt" for my baby phone. Expensive yo! Around 60 bucks for a silicone casing. Im so-not-willing to get it. Haihs. Big sigh. Phone has to be temporary in nude.

Tomorrow, 16th!

♥ ♥ Love, always.

空虚。

在家呆久了，胡思乱想也就多了

突然觉得，身边一切都不属于我。渐渐的，离开。

空虚。缺少了好多的事物。

与朋友的距离，好远。为什么就不可以像其他人一样，要出去跟朋友喝个茶，聊个天都那么难吗？

朋友再怎么失去，不见，离开也不想失去我的男友。

20岁，还是个18岁小瓜，被困在小屋里。好宅。

要整理房子，懒！要睡个饱饱的，胖！生活如此的无趣。

看来还是时候整理一下下书橱吧！下学期要来了，笔记也就跟着增加。

所定自己下个目标，新学期开始，要运动！

加油吧！！

Let's kick!

Yesterday was really a great day to me. I'd been accompanying him from day till night. A day to remember.

6.45pm, we both headed to Bukit Jalil for the Arsenal match. Excited. Yes! My ever first time. Drove all the way there, avoided jam, drove gangster bit. haha. Reach there was about 7.30pm. But, the jam outside the stadium was just not as jam as I thought. The parking was a real headache. We parked all the way back to the housing area and walked to stadium nearly took half an hour! A nice exercise for the night!

In the stadium, my attention was on the audiences. Their cheers made me even having much more fun! Of course, my boy too. First time watching a live game with my boy. Happy!

The crowds. Making me excited.

The players, Malaysia and Arsenal! =D

Finally, spotted Eric, my NS friend.

Yea, he was excited. Feel so great to see him smile =D

Match ended at 11pm. Way back home, had supper at mamak with boyfriend and he sleptover at my house. Awwww....!!! I feel so great. We are so near. Another first time. A real day to remember...13072011. ♥♥♥

Freely Monday

A great Monday to kick out my day. I love it.

Went Mid Valley to accompany my boy for lunch, bought some stuffs from skincare centre. I did really something stupid and silly. I was so happy to buy the things which cost rm1035. I gave my debit card, swipe. "Declined", credit card machine said. The receptionist tried for so many times already but it still declined when she swipe for rm500. Tried rm200, success! Another time, success. 3rd time, "Declined"!! What the hell!!! Walked over Maybank for help...!! Manatau......the salary haven't bank in yet! -.- Silly me called up mum to transfer.

Everything settle. Met up with my boy for lunch at Garden restaurant. A cozy, romantic, mighty white environment really brings down its food's quality! Disappointed.

Cheap fish can get in pasar and this cost me 18.90!

The super creamy spaghetti...yuckieee!!!

The mighty white environment wins a point.

Chilling out at Starbucks with The Fraps.

His choco chip. Her green tea.

Blueberry cheesecake. The awesome-ness!!

My lovely boy. Get his BB off from him next time!

C'est tout. Au revoir.

Hiking 爬山记

Yea. As what title said. I went for hiking this early morning. Fresh air, morning walkers, greenery, rocky path, steep steps...After you've made it to the top, you'll be saying "Good Morning World!"

Something happen. I was on my way up till the top. Bringing up myself, tired so hard, steps by steps to reach the top. I wasn't expect that will happen again but it did. I almost felt faint again like the first attempt at Broga. Dizzy, ear stuck, eyesight blur - The sign of fainting. Scared my shyt out of my asshole!

Guess I have to really keep myself real FIT!!! =D

Here comes The July

Time to blog.

I didn't realize is already July and my blog comes to a 3rd anniversary! =D Is been 3 years blogging. *yoohoo* What's next in life? Waiting for the degree class to start on 25th July. *yoohoo* again.

Im back to the eat, sleep, shyt life. Just being lazy to work, wanna have a lazy life for sometime before I got back to university. Working ain't easy at all even you're real too free. That's going bored till tired! What so simple working then? I can say none. The experience of working, you get your own hard earn money is the time you feel kinda motivated, but it just loses out sometimes. Adapting with the people you work with kinda difficult. Have to know their "culture", their attitude, every single moves have to eye on. Especially you are in a higher position than others. I dont really get use to it being leadership. Maybe just being kiddo. haha. But after this 2months plus working, feel great that I didnt waste my time and even get my own money! =D *applause* Is great to see when your banking account has some amount! What's next then? Time for shopping!!! =D

What should I spend on for my hard earn money?? An Iphone? A camera? -.-

After the few treatments at Bella skincare, my underarms condition getting better. Happy. My teeth are working great with each other. They move pretty fast. I think it should take another half a year to get it done! *huuray*

So far, everything goes so well. I got my own body scrub and own hair treatment. Feeling so good! Yeappie! Owh yeah...talking about body scrub, I'd been nagging by boyfriend so sadly. Speechless then. *gua gua gua* I think is the end of story. There're lots more to crap about (in future).

C'est tout.

Shopping Spree

Woots! I've spent rm250 for my own shopping with my own hard earn money! Happy!!!

1 shirt from MNG

1 wedges heel from Vincci

1 purse from Charles and Keith

1 eyeliner from Sasa

1 moisturizer from Neutrogena

I love the shirt from MNG! A pants from Esprit didnt get to buy cz no size! Hate! Quality so damn good! Smooth! >.< But still happy with everything I got! Time to change!

垃圾思想，离开吧！

忍受等于折磨。你的身影总在身边浮现。

离开了十个月，但我的记忆都存有你的画面！妈的！

你的影响真的有那么的大吗！！？哪怕只是一个动作，都让我觉得熟悉。

近来，我碰上的某个男生，性格几乎还蛮像的。让我觉得很想离开那地方！让我觉得他偶尔很讨人厌。一举一动，一字一句，哪怕只是你穿过的衣服款式，样样都让我觉得你真的很讨人厌！

男友，再怎么说对他真的不公平。我隐藏的，不想让他知道。因为怕失去，怕不再被信任，怕再也没有那些快乐的日子。每天都因这些垃圾思想，让我变得矛盾！好像找个人诉说，诉苦。谁呢？

这样下去，我也只能真的失去。

他妈的你！够了！离开吧！！！！！！

Bad Mood Monday

Mall is so empty. School holiday has came to its end. Business backs to normal. Quiet, bored.

Time, please fly faster. Bring me to the end of this work. I've been waiting and waiting, suffer.

Im feeling so cold here. What's wrong? Fever? No. But I so hope that I could just sick. SICK OF LOOKING EVERYONE WORKING HERE. DAMN! Especially the senior! I dont give a big shyt on her!

Complaints cant change anything. Is only a way for me to release all anger. I just need a break.

Im so indecisive. My boyfie was so frustrated with me. Cant tahan me always complaint complaint...cant make up mind = cant get things done. Haihs. Is just way too much for me to think. Yes is true, in future I gonna pay my mum back the money I've spend from her. But again, is that wise to get a camera using my own money now?? I know it would feel so great after getting it. How how??

Movie Marathon

First time go on a movie marathon with my lovely man.

Kung Fu Panda 2 was awesome. The boink boink Panda Po really got me into the movie. =)

X-men First Class...I can claim that a first timer came to watch this kinda "Star Wars" style movie was like watching cartoons. haha!!

Conclusion...is great for overall. Next movie marathon AGAIN!!!

Bye May, Hi June

May has gone, June comes in.

I've been working for a month. Turns out pretty fast, isn't it? Im gonna shout for QUIT!! C'mon! Is time for a serious holiday. I need a holiday! A real relaxing holiday!

Working ain't easy at all. Have to cope with people you work with. Of course, they are your colleagues. But, what if your colleagues are SUCKS!? Im not to say anything but a serious matter I really fedup and sick of it. C'mon la! Please see what's going on now. I'm just telling the truth and facts. You people not happy talk with the boss and not showing a face when work! Anyways, I'm just fine with that. Nothing to fedup. Hmm...do my own stuffs. Happy with myself. =D

Another treatment 'BANG' into my life. The braces took up a huge amount cost 6k. Every month rm200. Im earning. Was talking back about the previous post, my underarms skin condition are real bad. Yes! I'm undergoing the treatment at Bella. Dang! Hit another 6k!

Mummy said "I'm lending you the money now, you have to pay me back in future!" Gaga!! Of course. 12k dude! No jokes! -.- Im counting how much I actually need to earn to pay back this? Lifetime. Is time for a daughter to do something for mum.

Mummy said "Im easy for you. You just need to give me shelter and foods!" I smile.

Skin brightening, skin gel. In a year, I'm gonna have a nice underarms. *pray pray*

What's for June?? Earning money to get a nice cam! My aim! But, braces and treatments!? *scratch head*

Stay tune! =)

C'est tout.

What's Your Flavor?

It's the end of May! Baskin Robbin time! =D

What's your flavor?

The quart and The pint. Woots!!

My home 2 big ice cream eaters(bro and I) gulp all the pints in few minutes!

No left! *evil laugh*

Im so happy with every 31st!!

Money "Desperator"

Money, what is it to me now? Important!

Everything talks about money. I'm working for money. Pay by money. Gamble with money. Travel with money. Money brings happy life? Money make your beauty?

Why besides money is still money?

My braces, spend 6k.

My course, spend 50k+

What's next? My beauty! Im having a serious problem of underarms. Why God has to make me suffer from money??! Went over a skin care centre, Bella. The consultant was explaining to me every single details and of course, PRICE of treatment is much more important and interesting to hear about. Another 4k+

Where could money just fall from no where in front of me. It helps me to solve every single problem! That's life? I dont think so. Why am I suffer from all this!? A serious matter of underarms make my life even not interesting. Wanna be sexy but cant, wanna be hot but difficult. =(

Camera, 2k

Smartphone, 2k

What's less than thousands!? Hundreds! -.-

How much can I earn for a month to get my target??

Hospitality? Events?

Im an indecisive person. I cant make up my mind when something needed to be choose. I need a great push from the back to motivate me on choosing something.

I've been headache of thinking whether to take up degree in hospitality or events. Is already end of May, June is coming very soon. I need to enroll this coming June, no time to lose. But, what now!!? I wanna get back to hospitality as that is what I'm doing. Again, events is something new to me, sounds interesting, was thinking why not we take up something new since in the young age? But, I cant excel in my hospitality line. =(

Events...with new subjects, gonna take up some additional subjects as well...event management, special events & festivals, live event project, exhibitions management,...etc etc. Sounds all new to me and sounds interesting, isnt it?

Hospitality gonna get back to F&B which I like, accommodations, MICE management, accounting, financing...blah blah blah~ business huh!? But at least I getta excel. How??

There's one of my friend told me "Just go for events. 1st, event will get a better pay. 2nd, in hotel, mostly office work, just imagine in another 10years..where would you be? Still in the same position or maybe just got promote to assistant manager?? In 10years, will you get to open a hotel? Events, in 5 years time you might getta open your own event company. Who knows. " True also. 10 years after, I might still under a small roof. Only we have interest, we have passion. Think again, do I really have the interest in events, if have, is that just because of the pay? or because is something new? Sometimes, I could just have to hate myself for once. Bang on wall for once to knock myself off and forget the day!

Jessie, just go where your heart leads you.

钱，难赚！

时间一分一秒的过， 漫长得很！ 工作得有点无奈。

等待顾客来“敲”门。。期待的听着cashier机“开嘴巴”的声音。。“倾。。。” 有生意了！

工作天， 人潮没多少。泡芙也快冷死在冰箱了。员工，每天都无奈的坐着，期待财神爷可下凡给予生意。可见的是 生意难做！一字形容：闷！

周末日，人潮汹涌 但要买泡芙的也没几个。价钱起价后 还真的要搞些头绪了！一字形容：烦！

天哪！我3个月的岁月~ 就这么过！一点挑战，新鲜感都没。每天反复的做同样的事情。忙起来还真的谢天谢地，我高兴！我现在应该是要享受人生，少年时光。在家翘翘脚，看看戏，找朋友聊聊天，吹吹水。当然，抽空陪陪男友。可惜，现在时间不允许。我们俩的工作时间编排得不合。伤心。唯有迁就啰！每晚webbie见也开心。=)

工作闷而累真的很欠匾！我宁可工作忙而累，至少可给自己一个借口休息。好难受哦！想开学啊！时间哪~ 请你快些吧！飞的~

钱，真难赚啊！！！！！！！

Wednesday Day Out

A day out on Special Wednesday compensated for the 16th. Im so glad that Mr Cupid get me to meet up and get together with my boy. Gaahh....Im so in love!

Wednesday...movie for sure! Priest...thought was a nice movie but it did not reach my expectation. Just a normal story, not much actions. Prefer Resident Evil.

Roasted lemon garlic chicken for lunch...my boy did the cooking. Awesome! I love.

Italiannies for dinner. I so-liked the bruchetta. Nice nice. It was garlic bread, though. Some flavored cube tomatoes on top. *nom nom nom*

Chatime...yeah yeah! Finally get it! Chatime Roasted Milk Tea...the taste of roasted rice with milk tea. Not bad. I found out why they were so popular. Varieties are wide and special which will not get from others. =)

Owwwhhh...not to forget. I met up susu at Pyramid to pass her my precious teeth for her to do experiment! Yoorrr...another pretty dentist to be. =D After a long time, we finally get to met up because of the teeth, sounds lame? Indeed! =D

Last but not least.....Happy 6 month anniversary!

Im happy, he knows to make my day.

Love my boy. =)